u/Outrageous_Skirt3256

I have 2yr old Boy and 9 month old twin boys. My house is madness. I was told I could not get pregnant naturally and yet here we are...

I am 30F, I have had to give up my career for the near future because finding daycare for two babies at the same time on the same days is near impossible where I live (they have been on waitlists at every local daycare since I found I was pregnant with twins). They are almost walking and very active, I cannot go anywhere. It is absolute chaos. I hate it so much. I feel like my life is a mess and someone is always crying. I am doing my absolute best and it is never enough. I just can't do it anymore. I want some space, some peace. I feel like I am starting to resent them. I am a terrible mother. I never expected this life, I was told I couldn't have kids and accepted it and moved on. When I had my first we were told it was a fluke and to cherish it because it wont happen again. Then 13 months later I fall pregnant with twins.

I just can't anymore.

I have 9 month old twins. They have been on ALL our local (within 25min driving time from home) since I found out I was pregnant with twins. Nowhere has been able to get them in on the same 2 days since. What am I meant to do here? I cant afford a Nanny. I also have a 2yr old who I have to drop to daycare so can't actually drive more than 25mins from home to be able to make it back to work (wfh) in time. Is there any other options for support from centrelink? I am so stressed I am going to lose my job because I have no care for my twins.

9 month old twin boys. Both crawling and climbing, almost walking. We are having lots of issues with sleep. I was thinking about getting a double floor bed so I can lay down next to them and co sleep in the hopes it will improve their sleep and reduce wake ups. Had anyone done this? Did it help or did they stay awake longer playing with each other?

I don't know if it is hormones at 8 months postpartum with twins or what is going on but I still have food aversions from pregnancy, like the smell of meat or eggs and I cannot eat cold food for the life of me. I used to be a salad feen, now I am eating hot chips and nuggets dipped in tomato sauce and I am craving chocolate desserts, like I need 2 or 3 a day or else I am a raging mess. What is going on with me....have other people experienced this?

EDIT: When I was pregnant with the twins from about 20 weeks on I couldn't stomach solid food so lived on a liquid diet. I ended up not gaining any weight during pregnancy.

Any recommendations for a template for budgeting and personal finance including managing and following our investments (stocks and property). Thank you!