Idk what to make of my gender or how to communicate it
For labels I've used: cis, non-binary, genderfluid, agender, genderqueer and femboy. I like femboy but it's become way too sexual for me (I'm also ace)
For pronouns I've used: they/them, it/it's, she/her, he/him, any/all, or mixture. And honestly I get kinda confused online as to who exactly they're referring to when people change the pronouns they use for me.
For feelings I've felt: fem (light-heavy) neutral/non-binary (light-heavy) nothing (light-heavy) masc (light-medium) and a mixture of all or some at the same time.
For presentation i want to be fem and androgynous or just whatever I'm wearing. Being fem or androgynous gives me euphoria sometimes.
For my body i feel okay with myself because I'm pretty fem already, I have a few features I don't like but it's whatever.
I'm AMAB and I do think the fact that I am plays into how I see myself and maybe how others see me and that might be the only social thing I get anything out of?
I really don't know what to do with any of this 😥
Idk how to communicate it or what things I can do to get the right "vibe" across to people.
I said that I'm ace but I'm also aegosexual which means i still watch porn and enjoy it but it's kinda in a really detached way and I also kinda feel gender the same way...