u/Owl_head08

Hello can anyone help me find a 1 or 2 bhk for rent in Kochi?

for 1 female
no restrictions
should be in a safe apartment or society

pls don’t do bakchodi in the chat
be serious

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I think I like to be sad. I try hard to fix myself, taking medicines and going to sessions from last 2 years but I feel like nothing will ever change. My parents won't change. My reaction to their words would never change. However hard I try to not get panic attacks, breakdowns, suicidal thoughts, try to be happy.

I can never be happy.

I have tried but it all comes back to zero after some time. The same panic attacks I got when I did not try to heal.

I can't leave my parents. They have a high standing the society. I don't have the courage to leave them or suicide. All I have is the courage to harm myself.

I know nothing can change. So I have stopped trying to be happy, to heal. I will be sad from now. Always be sad. So when a problem comes, I won't breakdown like before cause I will already be dead inside by then.

I don't know why I am writing it here. I don't need help. I had enough help. But that won't change anything. I don't have anyone now. I am isolating myself. I blocked my two best friends. I don't talk to anyone else except at work. I keep reminding myself to be sad. So that I do not repeat the patterns that happen when my parents say something or problems arise in life.

My destiny is to be sad always. I will keep hurting myself.

I guess this post is an resolution to myself. An reminder to stay unhappy.

I think I like to be sad. I try hard to fix myself, taking medicines and going to sessions from last 2 years but I feel like nothing will ever change. My parents won't change. My reaction to their words would never change. However hard I try to not get panic attacks, breakdowns, suicidal thoughts, try to be happy.

I can never be happy.

I have tried but it all comes back to zero after some time. The same panic attacks I got when I did not try to heal.

I can't leave my parents. They have a high standing the society. I don't have the courage to leave them or suicide. All I have is the courage to harm myself.

I know nothing can change. So I have stopped trying to be happy, to heal. I will be sad from now. Always be sad. So when a problem comes, I won't breakdown like before cause I will already be dead inside by then.

I don't know why I am writing it here. I don't need help. I had enough help. But that won't change anything. I don't have anyone now. I am isolating myself. I blocked my two best friends. I don't talk to anyone else except at work. I keep reminding myself to be sad. So that I do not repeat the patterns that happen when my parents say something or problems arise in life.

My destiny is to be sad always. I will keep hurting myself.

I guess this post is an resolution to myself. An reminder to stay unhappy.

3 people (2 boys and one girl) college students coming to rishikesh on 7th morning

If anyone wants to socialize and give a tour like an local guide, we would be really happy to travel with you. FYI bas adventure karna h hume, not pooja path.....

Yrr ye delhi to rishikesh bus Nepali farms hi chhodti h kya?

Waha se to Laxman jhula kafi dur h

Please tell guys

As Delhi to Dehradun has now become an 2 hour ride, I am planning to visit to Rishikesh for just one day as I don't want my family to know 😭😭

What are the things I can do there? It will be a group of 3 people .

River rafting and bunjee jumping are a must but I am looking for an relaxing experience too....

Please tell .

P.S. I am very active so can cover a lot of places

Edit : any auryedic spa or yoga experience types things you guys have done?