u/OwnOutlandishness952

I want to start by saying I’ve never posted on Reddit before but I need to vent a little I think. I (23F) had my son roughly 7 months ago. I love this kid with my entire heart. But I’m really struggling to feel like I’m a human being outside of being a mother. I’m a SAHM and my husband works rough hours, so he’s gone the majority of the time and when he’s home I get roughly 4-5 hours of sleep before I have to be up with our LO. I barely get to see him as when he’s home I’m asleep and then he’s asleep before leaving for work again. We have a roommate who is tries to be helpful but they are not a kid person. They do what they can handle but I understand it’s not their kid they have no responsibility or obligation to help me. I oftentimes have the whole weight of keeping this tiny creature alive when it seems he wants to do anything he can to die🤦‍♀️
I’m exhausted. I feel like I haven’t slept since he was born and I know I have but I don’t feel like I’ve rested. My body is forever changed and I’m still trying to come to terms with that. My house is constantly a mess and I can’t keep up with the cleaning or laundry. physical touch is very hard for me so I never even tried to breastfeed. But I’m still constantly feeling overtouched and overwhelmed. I feel like crying everyday and Im not the type to cry kind of ever.
My mother in law is helpful but she also works a lot and can only take him for a few hours every couple of weeks. And when she takes him I spend the whole time he’s gone stressing out and cleaning.
I get so frustrated with my son and I feel so guilty because he’s honestly such an easy baby. But I find myself feeling so empty so often. I have nothing left to give you know? Maybe I’m just not cut out for this.
I know this is probably just PPD or PPA but drs make me so anxious and I’d really rather avoid medication (ik I’m not consistent enough with meds to take them everyday correctly)
I’ve been trying to get out of the house more like walk in the park and such with the LO but the weather hasn’t been great recently and I’m feeling so cooped up and like I’m living in a cave and that’s making it so much worse.

Is there any advice or anything that helped you guys feel like both a mother AND a person postpartum?

I want to start by saying I’ve never posted on Reddit before but I need to vent a little I think. I (23F) had my son roughly 7 months ago. I love this kid with my entire heart. But I’m really struggling to feel like I’m a human being outside of being a mother. I’m a SAHM and my husband works rough hours, so he’s gone the majority of the time and when he’s home I get roughly 4-5 hours of sleep before I have to be up with our LO. I barely get to see him as when he’s home I’m asleep and then he’s asleep before leaving for work again. We have a roommate who is tries to be helpful but they are not a kid person. They do what they can handle but I understand it’s not their kid they have no responsibility or obligation to help me. I oftentimes have the whole weight of keeping this tiny creature alive when it seems he wants to do anything he can to die🤦‍♀️
I’m exhausted. I feel like I haven’t slept since he was born and I know I have but I don’t feel like I’ve rested. My body is forever changed and I’m still trying to come to terms with that. My house is constantly a mess and I can’t keep up with the cleaning or laundry. I am autistic and physical touch is very hard for me so I never even tried to breastfeed. But I’m still constantly feeling overtouched and overwhelmed. I feel like crying everyday and Im not the type to cry kind of ever.
My mother in law is helpful but she also works a lot and can only take him for a few hours every couple of weeks. And when she takes him I spend the whole time he’s gone stressing out and cleaning.
I get so frustrated with my son and I feel so guilty because he’s honestly such an easy baby. But I find myself feeling so empty so often. I have nothing left to give you know? Maybe I’m just not cut out for this.
I know this is probably just PPD or PPA but drs make me so anxious and I’d really rather avoid medication (ik I’m not consistent enough with meds to take them everyday correctly)
I’ve been trying to get out of the house more like walk in the park and such with the LO but the weather hasn’t been great recently and I’m feeling so cooped up and like I’m living in a cave and that’s making it so much worse.

Is there any advice or anything that helped you guys feel like both a mother AND a person postpartum?