u/Own_Truck_2377

Go to church, pastor claims to be a sinner, & also claims to have the power to baptize, well under whose authority? Jesus told you but not me? You must have schizophrenia, time to take some medication. You don't even have a way with words to properly express your beliefs in a way that logically makes sense.

Romans 3:23: "For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God".

Ecclesiastes 7:20: "Surely there is not a righteous man on earth who does good and never sins."

Matthew 16:24: "Then Jesus said to his disciples, 'Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross and follow me.'"

So if you want to be a pastor according to the Bible, you should deny that you're a pastor & that you have the ability to baptize in order to be a disciple of Jesus. You should also deny yourself the holy sacrament & quit eating the flesh & drinking the blood of Jesus Christ. It literally says in the bible all you have to do in order to have eternal life is to believe Jesus Christ, yet people question his authority to feed people his flesh, so he says they have no life in them, so therefore they eat his flesh & then tell lies that they believe in Jesus in order to make themselves look holy.

Ask yourself this, if God were in fact real & he were righteous, would he reward a man for good behavior? It only makes sense that a just & righteous God would reward a man for good behavior.

However let's say this actually did in fact happen, how do you think society would react to this? Society would say this man is mentally insane, he claims to have seen the face of God, he claims to have seen miracles & magic tricks with his own eyes. He is delusional, he has schizophrenia, he's hearing voices & seeing hallucinations in his head therefore he must be medicated with anti-psychotic & anti-depressant medication. They would say this man is scaring us, how do we know he won't hear a voice in his head that instructs him to harm or kill us? We don't trust him, he has a mental illness therefore he must be medicated.

However in this hypothetical philosophical scenario, God simply rewarded the man for good behavior because he has suffered for way too long. Meanwhile the government, the police, the doctors, the healthcare workers, the parents. They continue to oppress. The man has never wanted to hurt anyone, yet society treats him like he's stupid & they talk down to him.

So it would only make logical sense that a just & righteous God would send the schizophrenic man to heaven where he can live in peace with his loved ones. Meanwhile God would send the oppressors, the police, the government, the doctors, & the parents all to hell where they would not see their loved ones again.

If a man were rewarded for good behavior, it doesn't make sense for society to attempt to emasculate a good man when he only simply wanted what was best for everyone, however when society hardens their heart & refuses to drop their integrity & they baker act & do forced psychiatric medication with forced medical intervention, God would send these people to hell.

Luke 16:19-25 KJV

There was a certain rich man, which was clothed in purple and fine linen, and fared sumptuously every day: and there was a certain beggar named Lazarus, which was laid at his gate, full of sores, and desiring to be fed with the crumbs which fell from the rich man's table: moreover the dogs came and licked his sores. And it came to pass, that the beggar died, and was carried by the angels into Abraham's bosom: the rich man also died, and was buried; and in hell he lift up his eyes, being in torments, and seeth Abraham afar off, and Lazarus in his bosom. And he cried and said, Father Abraham, have mercy on me, and send Lazarus, that he may dip the tip of his finger in water, and cool my tongue; for I am tormented in this flame. But Abraham said, Son, remember that thou in thy lifetime receivedst thy good things, and likewise Lazarus evil things: but now he is comforted, and thou art tormented.

One time I was driving in my car with my friend in the passenger seat. I remember around this time I had a coca cola can that I believe was unopened, & some cigarettes I extinguished that I stuck in the door pocket so that I wasn't littering. And then there was a big spark of electricity right in front of my face like one foot in front of me. The electricity didn't appear to be connected to any part of my vehicle, & I can't imagine how a coca cola can & some cigarettes could generate a flash of electricity in car without shocking me or my friend. I remember that clear as day 100% so you can't tell me it didn't happen, plus I wasn't under the influence of any drugs during that time, but what I'm about to say next could be up for debate that I've lost my mind.

Around that same year about 3 or 4 years ago, I could have sworn my lighter was yellow in color, & then when I went to grab that same lighter in the center console, the only lighter there so that way I could smoke another cigarette, it was now green. It's been so long since that happened that I might have to accept it was actually green the whole time & my memory is shot from all of the drugs I've done. But after I had that revelation, I became insanely happy & I started exercising at the gym every single day 7 days a week, that didn't last for too long though lol, I could be wrong, but to see something like that, I can't help but doubt it. But of course I just feel like I know saw something from a higher power, so I started to become hardheaded & stubborn, I started arguing with my parents on the regular that my schizophrenia is for real & not a mental illness.

So then I left my parents house & I moved in with my cousin, he allowed me to grow golden teachers psilocybin 'magic' mushrooms. After like a month or 6 weeks I had procured 2 ounces of mushrooms, stems & caps, I went through 2 ounces of them in 2 weeks because I had met a few people who made it seem like taking high doses of psychedelics is a baller move to make, & also because I was like wtf, I'm eating a little bit at a time, & nothing magical is happening, all that happened is I managed to write a couple of violent rap songs that I eventually threw in the trash because I don't want to sound like some generic rapper.

But anyways one day I made it to work where I was a dishwasher at this one restaurant near Central Florida, I figured eating a bunch of mushrooms before going into work wasn't an issue because the only thing I got to do is make sure the dishes are spotless & that I don't drop them & break them, meanwhile I became extremely paranoid of everyone who had a knife in their hand.

So I had stacked some dishes on the cart to put them on the shelves & salad bar where they belong like normal, & then I focused on stacking stacks of dishes on the salad bar, I turned around to grab some more, & then I faced the salad bar again & suddenly there were 3 more stacks of dishes on the salad bar. I looked over to my left wondering who put these here so quick, & my manager had a stunned look on his face, & then the next day he congratulated me for really picking up the pace since I started.

I think in my head ok well if weird paranormal events only happen for me to see, then I must just have a broken brain or something, but the manager saw that too? I mean I know I ate a bunch of mushrooms but c'mon I feel like there is a higher power toying with my emotions.

I tried telling my sister & she doesn't believe it, & I figure that everyone else would probably say exactly what she's saying, that dishes don't appear out of thin air, which would be my stance too, but I don't recall any lapses in my conciousness, no short term memory loss, none of that.

Also about 4 years ago, I was sober from the psychedelics, & it was December, I was getting ready to go to sleep, I was probably just scrolling through my phone, & then out of my peripheal vision I saw an image appear on my tv screen from out of nowhere, it was a roku tv & the red dot was lit meaning the tv was off, I saw an image of my dead cat & my dead girlfriend on my tv screen, I was perplexed by the way this hallucination didn't drift off of the tv screen, I shook my head to see what would happen, & the image dissapeared for 2 seconds & then it came back. They were looking as lovely as ever, so I thought in my head God reveal yourself as I glanced in front of me away from the tv screen, & then a hallucination of Jesus Christ appeared in front of me, he was in a liquor store, & this hallucination was like an alternate reality where I could walk around while I was laying down in my bed, Jesus grabbed a bottle of liquor off the shelf & smashed it on the floor, I thought I'd get in trouble for association so I walked out & my car was parked right next to the door not even in a parking spot, I hopped in & the gas pedal was missing. So I shook my head & the hallucination dissapeared & I was back in my bed.

I told my sister this too, she said it was just a dream, but I'm like it had to be real because I was wide awake throughout all of that.

I typically avoid telling people this in person because I feel like most people have a they have to see it to believe it type of mentality, so I've given up on going to church, plus I feel my words aren't worth their weight in gold & would have little to no impact on the lives of others so I just keep my thoughts to myself.

I mean maybe I was tripping too hard on mushrooms around those stacks of dishes, & maybe my lighter didn't really magically change colors

But I definitely did see an ark of electricity straight in my face & I definitely did have those open eye hallucinations without the use of drugs.

I really don't know what I'm doing with my life anymore, I just go to work, read a chapter a day, play a little bit of halo, & I skateboard from time to time.

Also I'm about to start some medication again that's helped me in the past for violent thoughts, but the worst I've done is burn one of my cousins aloe Vera plants in the firepit & it was from his mom, so no one physically got hurt, but when I ate those mushrooms it made me feel like I got possessed by the devil, however I guess to blame anything on the devil would be putting the blame on someone else, I don't have any proof that the devil made me psychotic, I'm just saying the word devil because I feel like I ventured into the most horrible demonic thoughts a human could possibly have, but in reality I'm not easy to become violent so I didn't act on those thoughts