u/Paa_ta

My mom only cares about my brother no matter what. Whatever i do is never enough for her. I feel like im never enough for anyone because of that. I do my work well she never complains about how i clean ect. I always do my best the thing is she is screaming at me that im useless for the things my brother does ( he does shitty work when cleaning, wastes food ect.) Somehow its always my fault. Whenever i try to bring it up she calls me ungrateful and rotten unworthy of her love. Yesterday she told me that she doesn't care about me. It hit me hard because all i do is to make her happy i try to please her and stuff. I study all the time im crazy stressed i dont sleep mutch since i study she is just never happy with what i do im never enough. She only cares about my brother who does nothing and gets everything on a sliver platter. When i brought up that i want to leave for collage she got mad she said that i must stay here and that if i leave she wouldn't give me a dime ( i want to go to medical school, so it would be crazy hard to work at the same time). She doesn't have a problem with my brother leaving for a better collage even tho he doesn't study at all. I dont know what to do anymore i feel depressed. I refuse to take the blame for his actions but when i dont she screams at me that im ungrateful and stuff