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Gucci shouted this in his autobiography as the tape he made when he was at his lowest… U can hear it with how dark it starts with this song and Me. if anyone has any other songs with Zay production dark like this lmk…

forgot to play yesterday. two days away from 200. only noticed this morning when i completed and it said i have a streak of one. that is all

There’s a cat who is constantly in my backyard. She will walk up to me, yelling “feed me, feed me!” whenever I happen to be outside. I’ve been regularly giving her food for about a year at this point. I’m not sure how she thinks of me, if she does much at all. I’m allowed four feet away but no closer, and she will announce “get back, get back!” whenever I start to approach that range. Though it’s a bit hard to stay all the way away when she’s the one sleeping in my yard and going all the way up to the door when she senses I might be coming outside.

I’ve wanted to get her neutered for a while now. I often hear her at night calling out like she’s looking for a mate. My neighborhood has a bad problem with feral cats. There’s simply too much. On any given night there’s almost a dozen out visible from my garage, and more hiding away. Very few are neutered. If I got her neutered I could help fix the problem and improve her quality of life in the process. And for my own selfish reasons, I was hoping that maybe she’d warm up to me more afterwards.

My county has a TNR program. I called them four months ago. They are incredibly backed up in requests. It was my only option because I did not have the funds to do it myself, and the county‘s program costs nothing at all. I got the trap about a week ago.

I’d been permitted to have it Monday through Friday. Most of the week was awful. It was storming hard, thundering basically all day. Seemed cruel to try to capture a cat in those conditions and I knew I couldn’t check on it reliably.

Come Friday, yesterday, and I had only one more day to capture her. I was out just about all day. She was just not getting in the trap. I had covered the sides with a towel, placed it in a pretty well sheltered area, put in chicken puree, her favorite treat, and she kept looking at me like I was broken because I had not put her bowl in the normal location. Her bowl was in the trap. At one point I even showed myself putting her treats in the bowl so that she could see. She was uninterested. I even tried leaving a trail of food leading inside after she left. I came back and either she or one of the other cats had eaten the tiny bit of kibble that was outside.

After spending so much time trying to trap her, I got hungry. I went in and started cooking lunch.

I didn’t disengage the trap. I didn’t think I needed to. I figured I’d just go out there and check in a little bit, and I wouldn’t be out too long.

I ended up eating, checking the trap one more time, then going back inside. I had gotten comfortable in front of the TV, and the meal I had was getting to me after spending all day trying to get this cat inside the trap. I ended up passing out right there.

A few hours later I wake up and see that it’s dark outside. I spend a few more minutes waking up until I remember the trap I had set up and start panicking. I go outside immediately.

The trap had been activated. All of the food was eaten. There was no cat, opossum, or anything in there. The trap was almost eight feet away from where I had left it. They had knocked over almost everything in the surrounding area, and the towel was splayed out on the ground. At some point, it had seemed, they had rotated the cage on its side, and opened the food latch. They were free.

The sheer amount of thrashing they must’ve done to ended up in that situation scares and upsets me to think about. Scared and alone, doing anything you can to escape the confinement you’ve found yourself in. I really hope it wasn’t as bad as I’m imagining but I don’t know what else could’ve happened. Usually this situation ends in a neutered, vaccinated and happy cat given some extra life, which is worth whatever pain happens during the trapping process. But there was no upside here.

I mentioned there’s many cats in the area. Some of them occasionally come into the backyard. There’s also an opossum who likes to hang behind my shed and a raccoon family who steals food quite regularly in the area. I don’t know what ended up in that trap. Whatever it was, if it was wildlife I could’ve freed it, and if it was a cat I could’ve moved it to the safety of my garage like I had planned to do. But I didn’t.

I feel so sorry for whatever got in there, and I feel like if I think about it any longer I’m gonna throw up. I really hope it wasn’t her. Not because I want another creature to have gone through all that, but because I don’t know how she would ever go in a trap again after that. I almost feel I shouldn’t be trapping at all after that.

Oh well.

and all that you could ever want from a McDonald’s is for it to be a McDonald’s