u/Pangaea_07

I have severe depression, but I haven't told anyone. My depression started when I became an atheist and stopped believing in God. I lost all meaning and purpose in life; my life became very realistic, and everything became boring, cold, and meaningless in my eyes. After years of this, I reached a point where I lost all passion for life. I couldn't eat or even go to the bathroom anymore. I just wanted to stay lying in bed until I died, and every day I think about death or how to kill myself.

I'm 21 years old and my soul is so, so weary. Death has become a relief I wish I could attain without committing any crime against myself. What should I do? I'm scared, tired, and so sad.