Broke up with my bf of 5 years
Pata hai aaj kya hua
I felt unwanted. Felt like i was pushing through it alone. I have no doubts saying that he too loved me.
But he also told me that his friend told him saheli ke chakaro mai pdhkr exam nahi crack hota. Which he later labelled as a joke. But it stuck with me. All the times he broke up with me over the tiniest of things. Although he would always find his way back to me but i felt unwanted. He deleted the only comment he ever did on my post just because our friends teased him about it. I know it was just a comment but it was like his first PDA for me. I used to look at it and just smile,but he deleted it. I know this sounds very childish and maybe it is but i feel like i just lost 5 years of my life. I was a child when i fell in love with him. And the worst part when he talked about leaving i begged him to stay but when i talked about leaving he said nothing.
If we have got through 5 years it means there were thousands of fights, alot of forgive and forget but now it all seems pointless. I never asked for physical intimacy ever. But he couldn’t even hold my hands… i just am broken because when i asked him for holding hands and all these things he just said MAI ESA HE HU.
And please no one tell me that if he didn’t hold hands he didn’t love me because i know for a fact he did. He was just the most shy guyz
Update- we mutually solved it😭😭😭😭ahhh am so happy