u/PeakBeyondTheVeil

Frisky?

Mamas boy?

How much is weed?

I haven't bust in 10 months. Almost 11 months.

I don't watch porn. It just doesn't really happen anymore.

I'm 25 today.

I started watching porn at age 12. Become a nightly habit pretty much instantly. My adolescence was hell. Adhd, anxiety, mental issues, lots of addictions and drug use. I then had a spiritual awakening of sorts at age 17. At that time I quit lots of things. Drugs. Caffiene. Social media. Unhealthy food. Video games. Porn. I also experimented with no fap. Going stretches without wanking. I experimented with it intermittently across the years. In and out of relationships. My relationship with meditation has grown over the years. My commitment to it was part of my journey with mastering sexual energy. If you want a healthy relationship with your sexual energy I highly recommend practicing meditation. Learning to use your mind is key.

My relationships with family members and friends have improved. I feel less anxious taking to people. I don't have that subconscious shame thing. I feel innocent and pure and alive and I feel proud of myself.

Have faith you will make it. The journey is worth taking.

I love that I don't sexualize everything.

Friendship is a really beautiful thing. I can now be friends with women more easily. Lots seem to believe men and women can't be true friends because of sexuality, and I think this is so dumb, wrong, and sad. Love is a great thing and it transcends sex and romance. Friendship is a great thing. Seeing people as people is sanity. It is holy. Life is good.

It seems I'm free now.

I keep just wishing myself and others were doing better. How do we heal mentally. How does healing happen mentally for communities. How do I and my family and friends mentally heal and get rid of unnecessary suffering and enjoy life. I see too much stress. Too much trauma. Dissatisfaction. Seeking. Restlessness. Compulsion. Loneliness. Disconnection. Adhd. Autism. Addiction.

I feel so much love for life and myself and others and I just want things to prosper. To thrive. To boom.

We flowers are withering, and that's sad, because we could be gorgeous. Alive. Electric.