u/PedanticReader

I have literally never experienced anxiety like this before.

In the car while driving back from my first shift at this new job and I began to feel this incredibly deep sense of intense dread and anxiety. I could physically feel it in my gut, like a twisting. Then the crying started. I could not get it to stop, everything felt awful and hopeless and nothing, I mean nothing is making it better. I have GAD and am on medication but this is horrendous. Got home and sobbed to my mom about it and couldn’t stop crying. All thoughts are consumed by this and the dread kept deepening. Started crying at 2pm and it’s kept on intermittent until now. It’s 8pm.

The worst part is the shift was only 4 hours and nothing even went bad. This isn’t even a full time job. I’m assisting a charter school librarian, it’s just us two, and I came from a position I loved as an aide at a public library. Only left because of a family issue. So this isn’t even something entirely new to me.

I left the house without a hint of anxiety this morning and only felt a weird little bit of sadness during my shift. Now I am dreading going back the day after tomorrow. What if I start crying and break down again when I get there! Of course that thought feeds the anxiety and keeps it going and this horrible sense of dread.

Why have I been hit with this wall of anxiety and dread? I’ve had two jobs previously and never felt this way. I can say over never even had an episode of anxiety this bad in my life. What the fuck do I do about it? Asking for any words of comfort or advice as I tear up writing this :(

I have seen a lot of discussion and complaint over the hair situation in the new S&S trailer, and I’m honestly a little perplexed as to why so many people seem perturbed by it. Am I just the only person not obsessed with early 19th century hair styles to such an extent as to render any film that departs from the “correct” historical fashions automatically bad?

I can see that it might be a bit jarring, but it doesn't seem like a make-or-break situation to me compared to costuming in a film. I think in general more people can recognize when costume are off or wildly inaccurate to the period in film and TV, but hair? Have you all had historical hair styling lessons drilled into you and I missed out lol?

So am I missing something here? Is there some hair subtext that is going to be woefully lost through the use of inaccurate hair styling in this film? Is it just really that big of a deal for some viewers? I am genuinely curious!

I'm a CA resident and have a card at my local library system (SCPL). I just started a major crochet project, and it has opened my eyes to the wonderful world of audiobooks. I've used both Hoopla and Libby, and I have a CA State Bookshelf card, but their app is awful and kept crashing for me until I downloaded a title. I'd like a bit more variety, plus the Northern CA digital library collection that my system is a part of in Libby has crazy wait times. Is there any way for me to get digital access cards from other CA library systems without having to visit in person? Or any library card in the state, for that matter, without visiting in person?

Applied for and got invited for an interview next week for a school library position. Feels like a very good fit for me with my experience and the description of the position, and yes I am aware of how cutthroat library jobs are everywhere. After endless “we’re moving forward with another candidate” emails for the past six months I think I’m getting overly hopeful about this one. The wording of the invite seemed weirdly…positive?
“During this time we hope we can share more about the position to see if there might be a shared interest in moving forward.  We hope that regardless of the outcome this will be a positive experience for you, and we look forward to the opportunity to meet with you.”

“Moving forward”? Is this just there general friendly way of inviting every candidate? Am I reading waay too much into this?