Switched to rdugs
So I was back drinking really heavily from the time I woke up until I blacked out. Doing stupid shit haven't showered in a week etc. Well I discovered I can order a certain substance -that keeps me from drinking- from a pet pharmacy. I got three hundred 600 mg tabs of these birches.
I took like ten of them today and got really turned on for some reason. Drinking used to dull all of that. I just drank to stay alive. I hated everyone and myself while drinking. But anyways I digress I proceed to download tinder and matched with like everyone I didn't give a fuck.
Then I had raunchy phone sex with like 3 different dudes at one time. I had to go out in the barn to do it to have privacy. I sent them all really really dirty videos. And I was butt ass naked outside fingering myself and moaning.
I think I much prefer being a crippled drug addict I might stick with this. Oh I'm still really high and turned on I'm going to have some more phone sex here in a minute.
Umm chairs I guess I'm sure I'll be back to alcohol soon this can't possibly go well.