r/Crippled_Alcoholics

I’m a female in my early 20s and have been drinking heavily for the past year and a half. At my worst it was a fifth of gin per day but these days its around 10-15 standard drinks per day of liquor or wine. It usually takes 12-18 hours for me to start feeling things physically, mostly heart palpitations and my BP makes my pulse feel like a fucking drum.

I’m at a point where this is not sustainable and I want to do anything I can to prevent going to detox because my family is currently unaware of my habit. Seeking literally any advice as to how to go about this

Went to do the booze run with my boyfriend today. I try to be silly because he gets a lil' anxious and I try to distract him.

I found one of those squeaky chicken dog toys and I followed him squeaking it to make him laugh. Then he said "Give the chicken to me! I'm gonna buy it!"

Now we're sipping and suffering and bullying each other with a fucking chicken squeaky dog toy. What a way to spend a Sunday! Probably a big mistake that I saw that squeaky toy. Ha.

(Also, I've been squeaking it on the ceiling because fuck the crackhead neighbor retching and banging about.)

Chairs, and happy Sunday!

So I moved into a new place a week ago. On Tuesday I was off work as usual and I went out drinking and listening to the radio as usual. I drink Natty Daddy 8% and have been for years. Usually 2 tall boys around 10am. 2 tall boys mid afternoon. 2 tall boys at the end of the evening. Never feel drunk just a nice easy feel. So Tuesday night the last thing I remember was buying a couple tall boys. Next thing is me waking up in a hospital bed. Right side of my face all smashed up. Staples in the back of my head. Nobody can tell me what happened to me just that a bystander walking by found me in the street and called an ambulance. The nurse tells me that my bac was .42. There is no way unless somebody spiked me with something but I went back and looked at my bank account and there was only the usual 3 charges for beers. I'm so confused and beaten up.

Have any of y'all ever gotten alcohol "poisoning" from cheap LEGAL alcohol?

I live in Belgium. Plenty of food/drink control over here. I did, however, use to buy the cheapest whiskey from Albert Heijn (a Dutch supermarket chain). Never had any issue with it up until this one time I bought 2 bottles. My partner and I both shared some wine and a bottle of the cheap whiskey, then the next day, I felt like I was gonna die.

No, not just hangover. Symptoms I've never felt before. I thought I had forgotten to take my meds, had food poisoning, hangover, and flu at the same time. Except none of these applied. I'm used to drinking more, so hungover was out of the question. I was so lightheaded, dizzy, nauseous, I couldn't stand up, i couldn't even look at a static object without feeling like it was moving, which ended up making me even more nauseous. I had to leave work after spending 1 hour in the hallway collecting myself so I could safely drive home. I was covered in cold sweat, my resting pluses was 110 bpm, my blood pressure was normal tho. Even after taking a nap, my pulse was barely below 95.

Keep in mind that it had been at least 10-12 hours since drinking LESS than half a bottle of whiskey.

I mean, my normal resting pulse is around 90-100, but certainly not when I'm laying down, napping, or not moving whatsoever. (Largely due to ADHD meds, low blood pressure, etc.)

My partner also felt off but not as bad as me (he weighs *nearly* twice as much as me or at least 1.75 times more).

We still had another bottle, so we carefully had a bit from it on a different occasion, and we once again felt way more "hungover" and sick.

Was it a bad batch? We didn't go blind. We didn't die, so I doubt methyl alcohol was involved. So what the fuck happened? I've never experienced anything like it since or after. I've drank way more on an empty stomach even, and still - nothing bad happened.

Have any of y'all been there before?

Chairs (with a different cheap brand of whiskey).

That’s all. My dumbass was to hungover and I literally just texted my boss After the shift already started that I wasn’t coming. also lost my last job for the same thing. I feel so stupid and like an asshole. So how is everyone?

So, highs or lows for the week?

What is something you're proud of?

Did this week kick your arse?

Has something happened that is going to aid you with how your life goes now?

Doesn't matter how big or small your high or low is. Sometimes, it's just good to share.

Chairz,

Muppet

Hello so as you could see, this isn’t my first time posting over here, but yeah you know I’m back into that needing support. I did relapse and I do feel regretful, but I don’t feel completely defeated. I came here to ask for support from anybody who’s going to the same thing that I’m going through, which is drinking every day throwing up violently the next day regretting everything canceling plans canceling events being in a room balled up because you just are so ashamed of yourself. That’s how I’ve been feeling every time I do drink my relationship with alcohol is complex when I don’t drink for one day I found myself the next day feeling proud of myself more uplifted more energy, and I feel proud that I could actually do it and that I didn’t cave into my cravings, but then after a couple of days of not drinking, maybe one or two days I tell myself I’ll have a drink and a drink that night but then the next day I keep it going because I don’t regret drinking that night because I was clean for 48 hours and I know 48 hours is really nothing. This is why I came here for Support. I want to go longer without drinking and I need help stories just people who can understand what I’m going through

i am a 22 year old girl who needs to seek help asap.

i plan on going to my local hospital tomorrow as soon as the shaking starts. i have been heavily drinking everyday for nearly a year now because of some stuff that i couldn’t process or deal with properly, happening to me. the drinking kept getting worse and worse and for a while now the issue has become impossible to ignore based on the effects it’s had on my health and wellbeing. it only keeps getting worse and today it pushed me to new heights.

i want to know if there is a specific type of hospital i should seek out, if this will jeopardize my Adderall prescription, a prescription i need to function, one I’ve been on for years as it is the only thing that helps my SEVERE adhd and hypersomnia.

is it going to make doctors and nurses treat me poorly in the future if they see that i got treated for alcohol withdrawal on my charts? what should i bring with me? is this gonna cost a lot? do i tell my mom (whose health insurance im on) before i go? i’m assuming this is gonna cost even more than the time i went to the psych hospital at 16.

if i choose to seek help i know i could potentially be saving my own life but it’s also going to uproot my entire life.

please do not lecture me on how i did this to myself, im FULLY AWARE how much i screwed my life up. i am seeking out helpful advice only. thank you.

It's the worst fucking feeling when the bottle drops and smashes.

Yesterday, Ambi made a lovely lunch for us, then we had a nap. He tends to hide the bottles when he feels we've had too much to drink and we go for a nap instead.

When we both woke up, we played 'Hunt The Bottle', only for him to look behind the door and it dropped and smashed.

Glass and vodka everywhere. Fuck! We scramble and jump into action. I grab the mop and bucket, and a dustpan for the glass. Ambi grabs a towel and cleans up the wave of vodka approaching across the floor.

What makes it fucking worse is that said bottle was delivered via a DoorDash-style app and the greedy twats always seem to mark up the price.

Cleaned up the worst of it before I went out to get another bottle for us. Had a pretty lovely evening after the bottle drop incident.

Anyway, I hope you're all doing well!

Chronic pain is kicking my arse so I'm up late trying to distract myself. The Little Scrotum of a neighbour of Ambi's is back after being arrested and he's back to stomping about like the crackhead he is, which is pissing me off and keeping me awake.

Ah well, chairs!

M29/ drinking from last 10 years , but last 2 years are horrible

I crave in morning now and drink beer or vodka whatever I got after every 2 hour

This makes me dizzy sleepy and I crave more next day

Blood pressure rises specially diastolic

Then it takes 2-4 days to recover when i quit drink properly

That doesn't happen before

I had been admitted it shows Zero grade fatty lever , little bit esphaugus problem related to LEX , Vitamin D deficiency , also have Tinnitus , and feel strained on left side body hand,feet,near left eye, however Heart reports are okay

Other reports are Okay

I mostly drink Whisky , bottoms up every Drink , Drinks with water only as in India it is common to drink like this.

I give now less time between my drinks and the worst thing happened with me is day drinking

I think I am stressed by age or lifestyle

Any help or advice ?

I recently have had a lot of troible from my neighbour stalking asking for money stealing from stores and threatening violence chairs because he got arrested and me and my lover are drinking to that

Ok just think about it this way, with a little humor, is i GET to suffer withdrawals.

I don't have to suffer withdrawals. I can always go grab another beer.

I GET to suffer them and so I'm sitting here thinking and rapidly decreasing my drinning while trying to do a responsible tapering. But i think wow man i can't wait to see the horrifying hallucinations i gets to see in the morning half asleep. I can't wait to feel the shaking and cold sweats.

Give me the nausea and diarrhea. I can't wait. Am i masochist now? Or am i just embracing the fucking shitty choices I've made leading up to this moment. Or am i just toxic positivity lol 😆 anyways, cant wait to not sleep and feel like shit tomorrow because i cant get adequate healthcare without paying thousands of dollars. Cheers 🍻