r/Crippled_Alcoholics

So I was back drinking really heavily from the time I woke up until I blacked out. Doing stupid shit haven't showered in a week etc. Well I discovered I can order a certain substance -that keeps me from drinking- from a pet pharmacy. I got three hundred 600 mg tabs of these birches.

I took like ten of them today and got really turned on for some reason. Drinking used to dull all of that. I just drank to stay alive. I hated everyone and myself while drinking. But anyways I digress I proceed to download tinder and matched with like everyone I didn't give a fuck.

Then I had raunchy phone sex with like 3 different dudes at one time. I had to go out in the barn to do it to have privacy. I sent them all really really dirty videos. And I was butt ass naked outside fingering myself and moaning.

I think I much prefer being a crippled drug addict I might stick with this. Oh I'm still really high and turned on I'm going to have some more phone sex here in a minute.

Umm chairs I guess I'm sure I'll be back to alcohol soon this can't possibly go well.

Him and I are both alcoholics. We are currently long distance, with a 5 hour time difference. Sometimes our schedules don’t align and that’s ok, we do the best we can to connect. But earlier he told me something I wasn’t expecting and I’m unsure how to feel. A few weeks ago he told me he had been going to a therapy group to help manage his anger and emotions. I was super proud of him for seeking help for his mental health. I know he likes to drink, but I guess I wasn’t aware of the extent of it. He confessed to me earlier he has been going to AA for about 6 months now. I asked him why he didn’t tell me, and he said he was embarrassed. Which I understand, but he knows I am seeking help for alcoholism as well (Id go through 2 liters of vodka every couple of days.) so it’s kind of lost on me why he would hide this when I thought for sure he would know I am open, non judgemental and willing to support him no matter what because our situations are very similar. So we talked and agreed to try taking on recovery together, despite the distance and hard ships. But I feel a bit heartbroken he felt like he had to lie to me, and I don’t really know where to go from here.

Editing to add that starting Monday he is going through at home medical detox which I’m unsure of how it works but I just wish him the best. Still stings a little that he hid this from me for so long

And by drunk I mean she just gets fratboy sloshed. But everyone on the sub is convinced the character Catie has delirium tremens or is going into withdrawals just because she twitched sometimes. Anyone seen the show or know what I'm talking about?

So, highs or lows for the week?

What is something you're proud of?

Did this week kick your arse?

Has something happened that is going to aid you with how your life goes now?

Doesn't matter how big or small your high or low is. Sometimes, it's just good to share.

Chairz,

Muppet

God has commanded me to drink and consume edibles. He hath spoken to me. In his infinite wisdom i will eat this pizza. I will drink until i can't. I will get high and i will go to sleep soon. Who am i to question his plans. I've accepted his plan. Thy kingdom come, thy will be done 🤣

Im a big coke and alc guy and was sober for about 5 months then slipped a little and got back on track and have been slipping up about once a month sence then this last week I went overboard did coke Molly smoked drank the whole 9 and I can’t seem to get back on track even though I have court and drug tests coming up

I lay in a comfy nest on my recliner and couch rot with my dog. It is one of my favorite things to do. But i need to stop. And get back to moving forward in my life. I need to make some changes. I need to make some progress. This depression and addiction really takes its toll. But there are good moments too, like laying on the couch and watching a show with my dog and blankets.

O man, I’m back in bender town. Like been waking up and drinking. Going to sleep midday and redrunking myself. Time and space has no meaning. But just why? I guess I can sort of blame the heat and the World Cup but yes pretty weak reasons lol.

It’s not even fun. I look at my phone and I’ve texted a bunch of people o I shouldn’t have. Nobody texted back so I just deleted everything and will claim my phone got hacked if anybody brings up anything.

Why is life like this?

I’m trying to get myself another job and the interviews have also been ass. Just email after email of “we are going to go in another direction good luck” and I’m starting to feel the futility of it all. I still feel like a little kid that doesn’t know what he wants to be when he grows up.

I guess I’m kind of having a midlife crisis and it’s getting to me. Yea more drinking ain’t going to help but most of the time it also doesn’t really hurt what already sucks too much. Anyways I’m rambling and don’t know where I was going with this. Chairs.

Just starting the drinking for mental enhancement or lack of, and don't want to over do it. That said, "stop now" is not happening so if you could just give me the approximate from your case or what you've seen that'd be great.

Just left a hotel lobby, hospital bracelet still in tact. The last memory I have was feeling dizzy in a hot tub (I don't have a hot tub). I drunkenly left my condo, somehow finessed the front desk to let me into the pool (or just followed a family in), passed out in the lobby, woke up in the hospital, got a free hospital cab to the hotel where I fortunately found my phone with the front desk receptionist, ate like 4 sausages from the hotel breakfast and am sitting at a park bench thinking about how I'm going to explain this to my gf

I’ve got kids so I watch a lot of kid movies. This scene is quite relevant in my life rn. Chairs lads.

Likelihood I get tested is pretty low, but wanna be sure about this. If I drink say 3-5 beers tonight (Friday), and the earliest time I could get tested is on Monday at around 2pm (so 60-65 hours), would alcohol show up in etg test? I also drink a ton of water, run, and lift daily. What are the odds it shows up (if I even get tested)?

I hid it a few days ago cause I didn't want it in plain sight and forgot where I hid it like almost immediately

3 days later - I found it today finally.

Cheers 😂

Was wondering if anyone’s DM’s are open cuz I’d love to talk to another alcoholic. No one in my life understands.

Day rehab next week, can be a fuctuction addict however is impossible with alcohol.

I tried guys… did the sober thing for a few weeks with maybe one or two days of drinking a few beers. It sucked…

Well I’m back now and off the wagon. Oopsies poo. Life sucks and is there anything else that helps the stress more than booze?

I’m using NyQuil rn to feel better lmao it’s got like 10% so I should make it out the tunnel.

I’m slutty_k21 or itsamethyst2563 whichever yall remember 🤣 been awhile eh?