r/Crippled_Alcoholics

i took one singular 25 mg librium 90 hours ago, and i drank tonight forgetting about it, am i gonna be okay?

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Ever come off kind of a bender and you place kind of trashed with beer, cans and shed everywhere and you finally shake it off and say I gotta clean this place up. I’m living in filth. So you start cleaning up and you realize every third beer is full and full of flys and you’re dumping it out feeling bad because you wasted money but at the same time feeling good about yourself cause you did drink less than you thought you had drank like actually not so bad. Better than I thought it was. I could buy less beer and make sure I drink it all rather buy more beer forgetting to drink it or whatever maybe that’s a luxury I don’t mean to do it. I’m poor as fuck. I’m like about to be homeless.

Chairs people.

So, highs or lows for the week?

What is something you're proud of?

Did this week kick your arse?

Has something happened that is going to aid you with how your life goes now?

Doesn't matter how big or small your high or low is. Sometimes, it's just good to share.

Chairz,

Muppet

Now my whole life revolves around my family wondering if I’m drinking or always being questioned. I miss when they didn’t know and I’d be given money from my parents bc ya they didn’t know lmao. Or like if I want a beer now it’s not oh sure let’s have a few beers! It’s “think about it first!”

Every waking hour is torture when i try to take it slow. I end up vomiting many times from withdrawal. So then i take a few shots, vomit that up and then try to nurse beers all day.

It was originally morning sickness but now its just constantly through the day feeling sick, vomiting and not even being able to walk around without feeling nauseous and wanting to vomit.

I do eat once a day at least. I drink Gatorlyte every morning with my pills. How the fuck do i break this vomiting cycle? I am losing my mind now.

I average around 22 or 21 drinks a day being my lowest. I try to measure shots and try to save beer tabs to help me keep count. I feel like if i could somehow get down to 16 drinks I'd be ok. But i can't seem to do it.

If i ask for benzos they will send me to medical detox so thats not an option unless i wanna miss work for a week. And i don't wanna do detox because i have responsibilities and shit i need to do. Am i fucked? Do i just need to hit the eject button and do detox again? I really don't want to.

Thank you in advance to those who take the time to read this. I really want to stop drinking alcohol. I recently relapsed and picked up the bottle again. I can't afford another detox (or the time away from work). I'm so afraid to quit because I get the DTs (delirium tremens) and have cracked my head open from seizures. I can't believe I ever picked up any alcohol again, but addiction has a sneaky way of ruining lives. I have different things I may try to fix myself, but I am not sure how to go about taking any of them. I've researched the supplements and meds that I already have, but I'm wondering what other people's experiences have been, if any. Here's what I have (I'm not taking anything..yet.) NAC, Dihydromyrcicetin, Naltrexone (I have tried this before but it didn't seem to help and made me nauseous..maybe i didn't stick to it long enough), acamprosate, hydroxyzine, levothroxine, biktarvy (my doctor prescribed this off label for AUD), and gapapentin. Obviously (at least I hope this should be obvious) I have no intention of taking all these at once but if you have tried any of these what was your experience. Any success? Pros and cons? Please let me know any thoughts. Blessings to everyone 🙏 ✨️

Not in life. Life has actually been okay. But I have been drinking a lot more and I know I need to quit this increased intake or I'll be bed bound a week at a time like I used to be.

What helps me personally, is delving into stories about alcoholism. It makes me feel a bit more normal and it's always easier to focus on something else while you're recovering.

Does anyone have any specific movies or shows about alcoholics they enjoy? I know when I'm down real bad I like to watch the Shining. Shameless also comes to mind. I watched the Lizzie Borden show last week and the father was an alcoholic and was shaking when he woke. At the time it made me feel less alone and made me grateful I wasn't feeling like that.

I'm over here on the delirium tremmens Wiki, just reading. And feeling a sense of relief that I'm not going through that again.

I'm sorry. I'm just talking. Trying to avoid that Benadryl tonight but naturally I'm wired and exhausted at the same time. 😵‍💫

So, highs or lows for the week?

What is something you're proud of?

Did this week kick your arse?

Has something happened that is going to aid you with how your life goes now?

Doesn't matter how big or small your high or low is. Sometimes, it's just good to share.

Chairz,

Muppet

i can’t do it anymore. you guys have made me laugh, cry, be mad at myself, everything. i can’t do it anymore. not even 99’s help with the withdrawal. i truly do thank all of you even the assholes.

I can't find a place on Reddit for the wives/partners of alcoholics. But I figure who best else to ask questions I can't ask my husband than other alcoholic (going through recovery or still actively drinking). My husband and I have been together since middle school. Married for almost ten years. We are 27 and 29 respectively. I just don't understand this person he's becoming, and I can't ask him ANYTHING. He gets super upset and shuts down. I don't know why he treats me like trash and pushes me away. I don't know why he's so grouchy and miserable. I have no insight. We have no alcoholism in my family but both sides of his family do. So for him this is "normal" and for me I am lost. Sorry if I am intruding into a space I don't belong... But anything helps. Thanks for reading