Suffering
Ok just think about it this way, with a little humor, is i GET to suffer withdrawals.
I don't have to suffer withdrawals. I can always go grab another beer.
I GET to suffer them and so I'm sitting here thinking and rapidly decreasing my drinning while trying to do a responsible tapering. But i think wow man i can't wait to see the horrifying hallucinations i gets to see in the morning half asleep. I can't wait to feel the shaking and cold sweats.
Give me the nausea and diarrhea. I can't wait. Am i masochist now? Or am i just embracing the fucking shitty choices I've made leading up to this moment. Or am i just toxic positivity lol 😆 anyways, cant wait to not sleep and feel like shit tomorrow because i cant get adequate healthcare without paying thousands of dollars. Cheers 🍻