u/cheeseburgermachine

God has commanded me to drink and consume edibles. He hath spoken to me. In his infinite wisdom i will eat this pizza. I will drink until i can't. I will get high and i will go to sleep soon. Who am i to question his plans. I've accepted his plan. Thy kingdom come, thy will be done 🤣

I lay in a comfy nest on my recliner and couch rot with my dog. It is one of my favorite things to do. But i need to stop. And get back to moving forward in my life. I need to make some changes. I need to make some progress. This depression and addiction really takes its toll. But there are good moments too, like laying on the couch and watching a show with my dog and blankets.

I am 40 years old and the xray says is have 24 degree left curve from t5 to t10. From what I've read a back brace wont help me much. The doctor has recommended physical therapy. I will need to schedule some time to do that. Is there anything else i can do to prevent further damage? Any excersize or tips as i have no knowledge on this at the moment. Also it feels painful right in the center of my back now for awhile. It feels tingly and then painful. Anyone else have this pain? What can i do? Thank you.

Yall ever feel like you're not in control anymore. Like the booze is guiding you. And I'm a little control freak and i want to feel in control of what I'm doing. Am i insane. I'm mostly in control. But today not so much. Why is that? Whats wrong with me? How do i fix this? Its been 20 or more years of hard drinking and i still have no answers. They say follow a program. But then what? I follow it then what? What am i supposed to do. Ah fuck. This is depressing. I'm gonna try to watch a funny movie and sleep.

Need some advice. My wife is 40 years old with mild cerebral palsy that only effects one leg. She has always been able to walk. Ever since I met her she sometimes has lost her balance and falls down. Its pretty rare but it is now happening more often. And she knows sometimes that she will almost fall and lose her balance several times in a day.

Today she said, i almost fell down a few times. Shortly after eating lunch she got up and then fell down in the kitchen. She is ok but we are getting older and I'm very worried she is going to fall and really hurt herself permanently. She doesn't use anything to assist in walking. Wears normal flat shoes. I have recommended a cane before but she doesn't want to use one.

Is there something i can recommend or do for her to prevent these falling spells? Is it something neurological? Inner ear issues? We had her do some neuro tests in the past and they all came back ok. Its like she knows on a certain day she will fall. But most days she is ok.

Just curious, how many over 40? Whats your secret lol 😆 mine is being a hypochrondriac and trying to eat lots of supplements and drink lots of water when I've got time in withdrawal. I try to only eat fresh home cooked meals but sometimes fall off that and eat junk. Also I'm fat so that helps me when i go too hard on a night of drinking. Thc/cbd everyday. Low dose Gabapentin to ease the constant anxiety in the morning.

How far to take this? My asshole is on fire. I got left and right side pains. I can't seem to hydrate properly. I think my intestines don't wanna cooperate anymore in absorption of water. I take my b vitamins and drink my electrolytes when i wake up. I can't seem to decrease by much. My blood pressure is crazy. My anxiety even worse. I'm reliant on thc/cbd all day, everyday just to keep a cool calm attitude. I have all these other health issues that i keep at bay because why go to the doc in active withdrawal.

I'm having a good time but suffering physically. Everyday seems to get worse. And i sleep all the time. Feel like that means my body is trying to recover and I'm not allowing it cus i wake up and drink and do edibles until the suffering goes away. Anyways, just yeah fucked up and tapering not working like it used to. I need to suffer. I really do. Just so i can then stop and heal for a bit. Ugh. But its hard to do. Goodluck out there.

Ok just think about it this way, with a little humor, is i GET to suffer withdrawals.

I don't have to suffer withdrawals. I can always go grab another beer.

I GET to suffer them and so I'm sitting here thinking and rapidly decreasing my drinning while trying to do a responsible tapering. But i think wow man i can't wait to see the horrifying hallucinations i gets to see in the morning half asleep. I can't wait to feel the shaking and cold sweats.

Give me the nausea and diarrhea. I can't wait. Am i masochist now? Or am i just embracing the fucking shitty choices I've made leading up to this moment. Or am i just toxic positivity lol 😆 anyways, cant wait to not sleep and feel like shit tomorrow because i cant get adequate healthcare without paying thousands of dollars. Cheers 🍻