u/Pickletheo_1

so I have this best friend, we’ve known each other for a little less than a year and we are really close. we get along very easy, we talk all day, we have the same humor, same interests.. we are basically soulmates.

we have the same humor so most of our conversations are us joking around / teasing each other. however my mental health isn’t too best and I get quite insecure in friendships like sometimes i just feel unwanted or annoying.

I would sometimes get these "episodes“ when I don’t want to talk to anyone and just ignore them until they notice I’m gone and comfort me. I do that because im looking for reassurance without having to ask for it out loud.

i told her about that and I told her that if I ever go dry or quiet it’s nothing personal. She said it’s okay and that she gets it and that "I can always tell her everything.“

however I’ve been getting those episodes more and more often recently (due to family issues / anxiety) and whenever I would try to talk to her about my issues she would just kinda brush it off, when I tell im feeling upset she’d always go "oh okay" and I’d always end up apologizing for my own feelings.

2 weeks ago I came to a conclusion.. we talk every day because I always text her first, so I wondered what would happen if I didn’t text her once. we ended up not talking for 3 days and in the 4th day she texted me something but quickly said "idk why I’m texting you you’re been ignoring me“ I quickly replied with "I’m not ignoring you, I thought you’re ignoring me but then i realized maybe you’re just busy with exam finals“ then she just kinda lashed out on me. she wrote a long paragraph and I could tell that she was speaking from anger. she finished up with saying "I didn’t want to waste energy on making you talk" which really hurt my feelings. I’m guessing she just didn’t word herself properly but still. the fact that she still couldn’t take my feelings into consideration and the fact that she didn’t think a little before saying that hurt. i always put her feelings above mine, I always spend a certain amount of time making sure I word myself properly to not hurt her, but she does the exact opposite. she gets all passive aggressive and points a finger at me.

i never argue with any of my friends but I happen to often argue with her. Our arguments always happen after I talk about my feelings. i told her that her reactions and wording weren’t really mature and that I’m putting so much effort in fixing things without hurting her feelings while she just lashes out on me all the time.

she later said she doesn’t really now how to communicate about feelings and that "every time someone opens up about their feelings to me I get the urge to block them so I don’t have to reply“ she then apologized to me and said that i can always express my feelings to her.

I didn’t accept her apology. I only tried my best to explain to her that she should work on her communication skills just so that she’s prepared for future relationships because communication is a very important thing. She said she admires my way of communicating and how i "always express myself beautifully while taking other peoples feelings into consideration". I just said thank you.

i thought I could get over it but I gen cant stand talking to her. i told her that we shouldn’t talk for a bit just cuz I can’t put my heart into our conversations and she "❤️" the message and it’s been 2 days. I just feel so angry and idk if I’m overreacting. I told one of my friends abt this and she said I was "underreacting"

I feel like I’m going insane and I really need to hear someone’s opinion on this. so in the recent years my mental health was/still is kinda bad. it effected my friendships a lot which is why I have little to no friends anymore. none of my friendships lasted more than one year. About a year ago tho I met this lovely girl and we instantly clicked, we‘ve had some ups and downs but we stayed friends regardless. She understood me and our humor was the same we both felt like we are just the same person. A few months into our friendship she introduced me to one of her friends, we can call her lily. Lily and me are from the same country and we speak the same first language which is why we started getting along easily and we were pretty close, we met in summer last year but we stopped talking for a bit and started talking again in October. we are really close now. I love her so much, she’s my best friend and she’s so funny and understands me. I’ve never had such a good bond with anyone before. lily and my other friend had a fall out tho. but about a month ago my other friend told me that she realised she had a crush on lily. I was really happy for both of them cuz they are both desperate for gfs 😭 I thought it’s cute and I’ve been trying to help them get close again. it worked, they talk again but now I feel really jealous and empty. whenever Lily brings up our other friend my mood drops so fast, I don’t know why. I just feel like if they start dating they will have some special bond that I won’t be a part of, it’s like I’m getting fomo but much deeper. I don’t know why I feel this way. I usually text Lily first but yesterday I didn’t text her and we didn’t talk since. but we used to talk everyday. I just don’t feel okay and I think I just want her attention to myself (which I know it’s wrong) but I just think that our friendship hasnt been the same in the past weeks. once I texted her something I was upset about but she ignored it and started texting me about our other friend. I texted her something I was excited about and she replied "hold on I have to reply to __ first“ ok? what’s the point of telling me that 😭 she’s really excited over being friends with her again and I’m genuinely happy I want them to be happy with each other but I don’t want to be forgotten.

i don’t want to sound immature but I feel like I let my emotions get in the way of my thinking and then I just want to disappear until someone notices and cares enough to talk to me.

im actually so desparate for prestige 3 gus.😭 yesterday I had him at 2109 but i ended up losing all the trophies and was at 2000. today I pushed him back at 2100 but after an hour I’m again at 2000. would anyone be willing to play w me?🥹 I promise I’m a decent teammate

so idk but my period tracking app just showed me I’ll have 14 periods this year. is that normal? my periods are pretty regular otherwise

ive been trying to push Gus to p3 for a few weeks now. the furthest I’ve gotten is 2050 and I keep losing and gaining those trophies back and fourth 😭 does anyone have any advice? what mode should I play? I mostly played showdown (solo+trio) and knockout

hi. I’ve always had friends but none of my friendships lasted too long. id guess I have attachment / anxiety issues and I’m always scared of losing people but I pretty much end up ghosting them myself as a form of self defense (I know it’s not a good coping mechanism). basically last year I met my friend, we can call her Lily. me and lily instantly clicked and we became best friends and today we are celebrating 1 year of friendship. lily had another friend who we will call Meg. I ended up joining their gc and all three of us were friends but quickly enough meg told me lily ghosted her and they weren’t friends anymore. it’s been 5 months since that. over time I grew very close to meg and id say I’m much closer to her than lily despite knowing her for less time. I kept an even amount of contact with both of them for the past few months. however lily recently told me that she feels like she has a crush on meg. which at first positively surprised me and I was happy for them (they are both lesbian) tho I was a little confused on how can u have a crush on someone that u don’t even know + ghosted 5 months ago. for the past 4 days the only thing me and lily were talking about it how she should approach meg and confess. I’ve been trying to help her, give her advice and courage but it hasn’t really worked. however yesterday they both talked to each other, Lilly reached out to Meg and said she wants to be friends. Meg freaked out and instantly texted me and i helped her write a reply. they are both happy to be friends again. I had a really bad day cuz of family issues yesterday and I texted Meg if we could talk but she ignored that message and just started spamming me about how she’s so nervous and doesn’t know what to text lily. I was a little frustrated but I tried helping her anyway by giving her advice. but she kept freaking out and saying how nervous she was over just texting. I was a little bored of it to be honest, it feels like over the past few days all I’ve been talking to them is about each other. they are both so nervous of speaking to each other even tho I keep reassuring them. all I get is spamming of "what should I text her?“ "what if she ghosts me?“ 🫩🫩 I told her to stop texting me (she sent me 30 messages) and I told her I’m not feeling well. Then she apologized and told me I can always tell her if I have a problem. I’m so bored of them and I feel really bad, I want to help them and I don’t understand why I’m so upset. I always have a hard time understanding myself and I’m scared that I let my emotions get in the way of my thinking. I think I’m maybe jealous? but idk, I think I’m just scared of being replaced by both of them. they are both my first long time friendships and we’ve never argued before