Got denied disability
TW: Suicidal thoughts and ideations
I got denied disability today. I feel like shit. This isn't word for for word I'm just so upset. They said that basically I don't exhibit enough pain because I can still stand, walk and move around and think for myself so I can therefore complete a full day's work with breaks. They said that they understand that my pain might cause me some emotional distress but that I'm 23 and I can handle a workload. I'm stage three, my arms tear open when I try to move shit around, I have multiple openings active. My flare ups are so sporadic I can't track it and a place of work isn't going to understand that. And if I stain a uniform with blood and pus I doubt they will be understanding then. I can't afford my medicine. I feel like I'm going to live with my mom forever, and she doesn't want me here. Today is the most suicidal I've felt since I was first diagnosed 5 years ago.