
My Husband by Maud Ventura. May this love never find me
I used to have borderline personality disorder before I was formally diagnosed with ADHD (treatment helped a lot of the BPD symptoms).
I was obsessed with this book. The FMC carefully analyzes every single word, action, or behavior from her husband to test his loyalty and love to her. There are so many times in the book where it reminded me of my BPD days.
Not saying the FMC has a mental illness, and I’m not qualified to diagnose her obviously. But her behavior just reminded me so much of my lowest moments: the constant reassurance from a partner; expecting something from someone but not telling them this so you get upset when they don’t do it; the tunnel-vision obsession you have with a single human (or favorite person, in the BPD lingo).
I listened to the audiobook and loved the narration. It’s like 6 hours long if you find time to squeeze it in. Highly recommend it!