I use the fan fiction generator fairly often, and sometimes the generator decides to ignore my prompt and write its own story. And every time it’s about ‘Arthur Pringle’. Does anyone else have this, or just me?
Hi! I'm 16F and kind of very confused. I have gone to an all girls school since I was 11 and the only guys I interact with are my family members. For a while I've been flitting between lesbian and bisexual because I know I'm attracted to women but unsure about men. I've had a girlfriend but the most we ever did was hold hands and I don't think I ever really liked her like that. Part of me has always thought that maybe I'm straight and managed to confuse myself overtime as I know I'm a person who tries to be different even if I'm not in some areas. This isn't something in the forefront of my mind though, kind of just a subconscious need to be special but that's besides the point. But when it comes to celebrities, I really can't find male adults in media attractive. I don't know if it's something to do with personality or the fact that most male celebrities are grown adults and I'm not. But on the otherhand, sometimes when I think deeper and try to imagine myself in a relationship it's with a guy? This is really confusing for me as I don't think I've ever actually found a guy attractive before unless they're atleast slightly effeminate but these people, again, are only ever in the media.
Compared to other people my age and people my age in shows and movies, I don't go out and socialise much. I have a small group of female friends who I've been friends with for years and we don't tend to do much outside of shopping or going to eachother's places. I think maybe this is something that's factored into this, due to not hanging out with a range of people my age therefore not having proper romantic feelings. But maybe that's because I'm asexual? Or aromantic? Though the idea of sex has never repulsed me and I read smutty fanfiction, and I don't think I'm someone who wants to be single for their life.
On another note, my dad shared with me that until he was like 20 he thought he might be gay even though he wasn't attracted to men because he felt differently towards women than his straight friends did and this is something most likely caused by his neurodivergence, which I was lucky enough to inherit. So maybe I'm straight and just confused because of the way my mind works? But then part of me also thinks that maybe I am gay, but because of the societal expectations to get married to a man and have kids (even if its less prominant than in previous years) means I struggle to imagine myself in a relationship with a woman. This confuses me, because the idea of having relations with a woman isn't disturbing or even slightly wrong in my mind, but that may just be because I see no problem with it in an ally way?
Anyway, I know this post is long, but I'm not looking for answers as I know those are gonna have to come from me. I just want to see if anyone relates, or did relate and has tips on how to figure out my sexuality. I also just wanted to get that out lol so thank you if you read this far it means a lot