Wondering what this comment means after I gave him oral
I started hooking up with a new FWB today. He is several years younger than me, in his 20s and I am 40f. When he first started flirting with me he was super confident and even a little cocky. I’m more shy. But as we talked more we opened up about kinks and fantasies and learned we both are into rougher stuff. He has a more dominant side and I am submissive. He has a very primal masculine energy when aroused which I am very attracted to.
As we talked more he confessed he’s never had the type of sex we talked about, but he really wanted to experience it, he was craving it. I mentioned deepthroating and he was very, very intrigued.
So today he came over and I sat him down and performed some of the best oral I’ve given in my life. I wasted no time getting him to the back of my throat. I mostly controlled the pace due to needing to breathe lol but I did let him hold/push my head a little when I could tell he was wanting a certain rhythm. Toward the end he sort of… growled? (idk it was sexy though) and he stood up and I let him thrust until he finished.
After we cleaned up he told me he’s never had anything like that in his life. Said I’m very talented, best oral he’s had, five stars, there may have been a high five? 🤣 he kissed me passionately. We laid in bed a while talking and he said “you know, that was almost degrading a little” but he said it in a light/joking manner. I said “for me or for you?” and he said “me. I felt small for a little while there. I could see that I wasn’t … but I don’t know how to explain it” (for context he’s a tall guy and is also well endowed) I told him I was sorry if I made him feel weird and he said not at all, he just didn’t know how to put it into words.
I didn’t want to push so I dropped it. But the comment has stuck with me ever since. Can anyone give some insight on what that may have meant? I am wondering if it has anything to do with me controlling things for the majority when he’s used to being in charge? We did not dive right in to the D/s roles, and I wonder if he expected that for the first encounter instead? I’m hoping it’s somehow positive, given his comments and behavior... I definitely don’t want to degrade someone unless they’re into it and ask for it!
I tend to overthink and get in my head, so I’d love some perspectives or opinions. Especially if any other guys/doms may have felt something similar before! Thanks
Update:
Not sure if anyone will see this but I thought I’d add it anyway!
We talked this morning and before I could even ask he explained. First he said he dreamt of it last night and woke up thinking of it, and told me I’ve got him fucked up. I asked in a good way or a bad way? He said the best way. He said he never expected me to be able to take the whole thing like that. So I asked if that’s what he meant yesterday and he said yes lol. And then he called me on his lunch break to tell me all the filthy things he will do to me later. So all is well. I appreciate everyone helping me process it and consider different perspectives!