u/PotatoSeparate207

Ive tried to raise my self esteem by hitting the gym, talking to new ppl, challenging myself and i still feel low self worth and poor confidence. On the other hand, i know ppl that are on drugs, or are not challenging themselves, not leaving to the status quo of society, yet they seem to have higher thoughts of themselves.

My question is why do those people have better confidence than me, and here i am, trying to prove myself evidence to just get a small glimpse of better self esteem yet not believing it

Ive been contemplating this question for a minute like, whats the point of learning new skills, a language, etc whichever u want if we are gonna die and not take it with us. Whats the point of even anything if in 100 years it will likely wont matter. This is limiting me to commit to things cuz i know if i invest too much time on lets say learning how to play guitar ill feel like im wasting time cuz it wont matter

Idk where i got the idea but ive been trying to find the point of getting better because we can die any day. For example, why go to the gym or read self help books if i can die tomorrow and all that went for nothing when instead that time could have been used indulging in short term pleasures like smoking weed, partying etc. we dont retain all the information we used to become better, all those books read. in 100 years all that gym and knowledge or making money wont matter because we die eventually. How do i challenge this perception? Could it be like existential crisis?