Feel like TEC really clicked for me this Sunday
I went back to one of our local Episcopal churches this Sunday for the first time in several months, and just felt like something about it finally clicked for me. I had gone somewhat regularly in the spring but it felt quite strange and I really felt like an outsider trying to figure everything out. After taking a break for a few months, this time felt quite different. It just felt right and like I belonged there. I also felt like I could actually think about God and Christ without all the anxiety/dread I used to associate with church.
Honestly this was a big deal for me. I grew up in a fundamentalist Christian sect/cult (left a few years ago) and was taught that if you ever left, no other church would really feel right adn God would not be there. Other churches might look appealing, but they wouldn't have "the right spirit", and eventually you would realize what you had lost and feel the need to come back. I think a part of me has been worried that was true due to all the conditioning from my upbringing.
Instead, Sunday was really uplifting. The singing/music and sermon were lovely. The Church was actually pretty full which was a bit surprising since our area leans very Evangelical. I brought my kids and they seem to have really liked it. My four year old has been asking when we can go back every day since, lol. My wife even said she's going to come along next week, which is also a big deal as she has been pretty anti-Church since we left the cult.
Anyway, just wanted to say I'm thankful for this Church. I feel like it has been a good place for me in a difficult time of questioning and rebuilding my faith.