How do u cope with no afterlife ?
Hi I’m sorry if this has been asked before a million times but I’ve been having a rlly bad extisential crisis for months and I’m trying to get all different perspectives on life to change my views on life i suppose.
Anyway I was raised catholic but I’ve been passionate about science my whole life and studied it , I always knew god wasn’t real but I guess I never rlly stopped to think about it further until recently. Anyway when I did it triggered a massive existential crisis, I dno why all of a sudden.
What stresses me out and upsets me the most is when we die we won’t have any awareness we ever existed , we won’t know the faces of our loved ones or our major achievements In life etc . By no means do I think I’m special I just think in general this is rlly depressing and I’ve lost a lot of motivation in life, I find myself slipping into nihilism, I don’t want to but it’s hard not too. I just feel like life is pointless.
I know this is maybe to much for on here but I find myself dissociating a lot, it’s hard to explain but it’s like when I die I won’t even know I existed so is any of this even real , how will I have no idea that I was ever alive , like all this happening right now will mean nothing to me so it’s hard for it to mean something right now when it doesn’t even exist when I’m dead. I always hear the classical oh you play a movie knowing it’s going to end , I get that analogy but obvsily it’s no where near as important a comparison.
I’m rambling now but I constantly try tell myself like I love and look after my pets when I know they’re gonna die and not remember me , but it just doesn’t ring true when I think about how I won’t remember even existing.
Sorry if this is a lot , I have been trying to seek professional help because I think I’m going a bit crazy. Thanks