u/Present_Cucumber2120

So I am a long time lurker commenter, this is my first post. I’m 48F (also had a breast reduction before this started) and have had my left breast leaking fluid from the nipple that crystalizes once dry or I can force it out. This start 16 years ago. I had 2 mammograms early on and at least one ultrasound but they found nothing at all in the left breast. The fluid is usually a clear yellow tinged with green but once in a while like when my mom died it turns kinda bloody or what I assume is blood because it looks kinda brown.

Long story short it started the turning brown again about a week ago and way more coming out then normal and leaking on its own which it hasn’t done in ages. No ones ever tested the fluid. But I mentioned it to my PCP when I saw her last week & after blood work checking for the prolactin levels which were normal she’s now pushing for a mammogram & ultrasound. (When I asked her goal since this obviously isn’t infection, she said she’s looking for cancer). I have a DNR already, repeatedly told her I won’t do anything if I have cancer. So whats the point. I almost didn’t tell her about the fluid change because I knew this would happen. But I’m so frustrated and kinda scared. I may not want to live anymore but that’s different than actually dying. I lost my mom & grandma to cancer just not breast cancer. Ok I think I got it out of my system.

Mods I’m not looking for medical advice. Just needed to say all that out loud so to speak where people might understand.