u/Present_Water7280

So, long story short

i like a classmate, but he's my friend's (she's also a classmate) cousin, so my friend and her mom thinks that my crush also thinks of me as a sister just because I'm his sister's friend. (they have said it during a past convo abt our safety, yeah 😵‍💫)

well he has also given me hints in the past but they all came to an end (?) when he started being best friends with this guy who has liked Me openly for a long time, he's like stepping back yk? because I'm his close friend's crush and also his sister's friend. And the thing that hurted me for real? well,

two weeks ago we were in a class and my crush was talking to another close friend of the guy who likes me. Then suddenly that guy pointed at me (couldn't hear what he said) and my crush said "mera kya lena dena usse? lena dena toh (name of the guy who likes me) ka hai, uski past history hai wo, usse connection hai" while laughing.

lmao well what do i even do now

also me and the guy who likes me, we're growing KINDA!close bc he keeps finding ways to talk so I'm kinda opening up (I'm an introvert)

But his friends? they ragebait me so bad and we have argued a few times 😭 I've had arguments w almost all of his friends

imma MANIFEST 🙏🏻🔥💥 online classes cause there's no way I'm going to school in near 45°C temperature. also I don't get it why are schools so dumb? they won't even let us drink water between classes. I'm near fainting everytime i step out in the sunlight. there's NO CHANCE of me going to the damn extra classes physically xoxo 💋😘😍

the ACHE when u wake up 😭

today i had one of these and it was about my sp. literally word to word, everything in the dream went according to the scenario I'm lwk manifesting. i kept waking up inbetween a few times but everytime i fell asleep, the dream just continued.

in cavemen language again bc i have a test tmrw

it a class test, he sit behind me, he ask me help him, i say "i will :D" , he :D , he say "don't ignore me this time", i realise it a hint abt our old situations, i say "i won't :D" , he :D , then we get question papers, different sets, he check mine, they different, after a while he jokingly(?) say "(my name) broke my heart/betrayed me" out nowhere, i say "i did?" he nod, i realise how poor our communication is. he now start standing real close again, my friend again notice it all, she ship.

(not related i think but in one of our classes, there's a teacher who always says my name completely wrong, like removes the middle 3 letters completely with sm confidence 😭 he did it again today and all of his friends were looking at him and laughing ?? this happened yesterday too)

dude was smiling like an idiot while talking🤌🏻 and thank god the coldness came to an end

(other stuff happened too but I'll type it all later)

in caveman language bc I'm kinda tired: 2025 july school start , new school , i new student , he in same classes , he start liking me , gave me signs daily , was so expressive , but no confess , jan→me accidentally ignore him , he start avoiding me , told me that me is reactionless , he act sad , ignored his friends , was always silent (opposite to his past behaviour) , me feel bad , april → new session start , yesterday me listen to this sub , he starts being his old self back , today he lowk crushin again

[listened 6-7 times only yesterday ]

(also using an alt acc to post this! feel free to ask any questions) forgot to mention that he reposted stuff like “babydoll i can't move on” (that song😭) , some vid w the text “i wish i knew her name..." then it says "don't mention her name infront of me" “the day my eyes met hers, i knew i was in trouble” and similar