u/Prestigious-Spend419

I've been spending the last few years preparing for UPSC while also reading philosophy, especially Jiddu Krishnamurti.

Somewhere along the way, I realized that what interests me most isn't achievement alone, but understanding—of society, of the mind, and of ourselves.

I enjoy conversations that don't revolve around comparison, status, or proving who's right. Quiet people, long pauses, honest questions, and genuine curiosity feel far more meaningful to me than constant noise or small talk.

Outside exam preparation, I find myself listening to k on youtube . Nothing interests me more than watching k and watching myself ( earlier I used to watch web series , movies etc but now all that seems so superficial and childish , i get bored at all this )

Deeply I also see that I am conditioned . I have all the cleverness that a human has in his mind , jealousy, competitiveness, anger , seeking recognition and respect

All this , i have found in myself . But at the same time I see a gap has been generated between my thoughts and my reaction

I can see all these arising in my brain and I see these are taking so much of my energy and trying to make me think and act further. I don't react. I just see . Watch and it just gets normal again

I don't meet many people in everyday life who relate to this way of looking at things, so I thought I'd write here. If Krishnamurti's work has resonated with you—or if you've naturally arrived at a similar outlook—I'd be interested in hearing your perspective.

No expectations, no agenda. Just a conversation between two people who enjoy thinking deeply and value kindness, sincerity, and compassion.

Looking for a Serious UPSC Accountability Partner

I'm a 29-year-old UPSC aspirant preparing full-time. Over the past two years, I've completed GS I–IV, made comprehensive notes, regularly read newspapers, and I'm now focused on answer writing, revision, and optional (Public Administration). I also plan to prepare for UGC NET alongside UPSC.

I'm looking for one serious accountability partner who is genuinely committed to the exam. The goal isn't endless chatting but maintaining consistency, sharing daily targets, discussing doubts occasionally, and keeping each other disciplined during this long journey.

I usually study independently and prefer deep discussions over superficial conversations. If you're someone who values consistency, honesty, and mutual support, I'd be happy to connect.

A female study partner would be appreciated if anyone is interested, but what matters most is sincerity and commitment to preparation.

Feel free to DM if this resonates with you.

What I feel strongly is ... Upsc is trying to clear the crowd created by the coaching industry.

It is a silent war between the coaching institutes and upsc in which the aspirants suffer

Pre dene k baad mujhe khud utna dukh nhi hua . Jitna social media dekhne k baad hua. Teachers created so much of anti upsc view and so much of depressing thoughts that I started feeling depressed. Teachers were deliberately sympathising the students , trying to manipulate , creating an image that we are still here. We are your saviours and it is all because of "upsc"( the real villian )

Mujhe to dekh k lg rha tha teachers apne upsc failure ka frustration nikal rhe the .. hmare 2026 k paper k jariye ..

But the real thing is... Agr coaching aur ye crowd aur teachers like bojha and all .. agr ye log upsc ko itna bda business nhi bnate aur upsc ka itna "hauwa" create nhi krte pichle 10 salo me to paper simple hota.... upsc doesn't want candidates who are spoon fed . They want students who read broadly on their own.. who thinks on their own. Who are not shaken and are calm in an uncomfortable situation.

After the pre

I was satisfied with my progress at least. Pichle attempts k comparision me ..I performed better in both the papers( mera b nhi clear ho rha but fir b I feel I did my best and I was able to identify everything with a calm mind )

During the paper also. I felt the mindset of the paper setter. It was just an anti coaching paper to clear the crowd and nothing else . They just want to discourage the students deliberately so that their dependence on coaching reduces and they start reading on their own