u/PrestigiousDivide900

My "friends" bully and body shame me constantly, and I'm exhausted.

They make memes and stickers of me and spam them in the group chat. It's not just a one-time thing they look for any excuse to randomly send my sticker and laugh at my expense. It feels like I'm the permanent punchline of a joke I never agreed to be part of.

I know I'm not conventionally attractive, but that doesn't mean I deserve to be emotionally tortured by the people who are supposed to care about me. Every time my phone buzzes from that GC, I brace myself. The anxiety of just waiting for the next round of mockery is exhausting.

It's genuinely messing with my mental health. My self-esteem is at an all-time low and the anxiety is constant , and I can't concentrate on anything . I have this exam in a few months and I need to study for it but all I can think about is how to deal with them.I dread opening the group chat, I second-guess how I look every single day, and I'm starting to feel like maybe they're right about me. Which I know isn't healthy, but it's hard not to internalize it when it never stops.

Has anyone else dealt with friends who treat you like this? How did you handle it did you confront them, leave the group, or something else? I genuinely don't know what to do anymore.

Hi Im 18 M

So this has been happening to me for years and I genuinely don't know what to make of it.

Whenever I have to think deeply about something like solving a maths problem, studying, or even just following a complex conversation with someone my brain just starts playing songs. Fully. Like a whole track just starts running in my head and I can't turn it off.

The frustrating part is it's not like background noise. It actually overpowers my thinking. I'll be trying to focus on a problem and the music just takes over completely. Even when I actively try to push it away and refocus, it comes right back. It even happens during regular everyday conversations with people which makes it hard to stay fully present.

For context I'm a massive music addict - or was. I've barely listened to music for the past two weeks, only occasionally during travel. And even then the involuntary playback in my head hasn't stopped. So it's not like I'm just replaying something I recently heard.

It's been messing with my studying for a long time. I'm preparing for a pretty important exam and this feels like a real obstacle.

I can't see a professional right now so genuinely just looking for anyone who's experienced something similar or knows what this actually is.

Is this a known thing? Can I fix this? Please help.