u/PrestigiousPeach9544

You see through me, the way I mask my tears. I want to be held by you to know that I am safe in your presence. Can I breathe and cry in your arms again. I know, this is too much to ask.

I never unloved you. I’ve never forgotten how you made me feel. I know there’s sadness in my eyes. I’m scared to talk to you again, in case I spiral back longing for you.

Perhaps you are already someone’s home.

I just want to let you know that I appreciate you for not making me feel weird and out of this world whenever I enjoy reading people’s behaviour, talk about philosophy and share the most random sh*t. I have never felt too much or less of a person.

For someone who is constantly needed, you became a reliable person. Someone I could let my guard down. Someone I could tell, I'm tired of performing outside.

I'm not asking for another chapter, mainly because I was the one who ended it. I just wanted to get this off my chest because someone is making me feel I am not enough. Thank you tho, for ever being so kind to me. Maybe I was really too much, maybe I'm too difficult- I think I am difficult, maybe I always hope for the best, but these noises were never our problem.

I miss your calm presence, the way peace just sits in the silence. This current emotional limbo is not for me. I wish I could ask you to help me navigate this circumstance as my favourite guru, not as a partner, but a friend.

I miss you!