u/PretendAccount2651

If anyone has the audiobook for TV please send

Your spouse might be significantly older, younger, or have an unconventional lifestyle that turns heads. Public recognition in relationships is common-whether through a high-profile partner or a controversial marriage. What does this even mean “unconventional lifestyle” “controversial marriage”

So I'm straight and I like boys
But when I was 18 ... someone (a girl say X) perused me and at start I did not gave her any importance like I'm introverted and all and then we became friends and until then I was not aware that she was a lesbian and I'm not that smart either and for me whole gay thing was a new concept and I was noob with zero knowledge so it never hit me like she might be a lesbian
She persuaded and I was like no and then was like so eagerly doing it there was a 4 year age gap.. during starting she told me she might me 20-21 and after some time she told me she was 22 and I did not like her perusing me this way so I said clear no but she kept saying let's see where it goes you don't have to stick with me and all and I refused to talk to her and then she said please give me last chance and let's talk and I went and same thing happened and I said no and suddenly she tried to kiss me like a lip kiss and I went away like wtf and she said I'm sorry but I wanted to do it I like u all and then we we got to leave she held me against the wall and kissed me again and I did not kiss back and I was constantly like what no and she kissed my neck and she left a hickey on my neck. And after that I was like wtf and she starts being all emotional and puppy eyes I like you a lot and you said no and all that bullshit and at that point I could not exactly scold her and then I went my home and after some time her friends started calling and texting me like look at her without u she is like that and all. And I was like please don't be like this so I went to meet her to make she is alright and then she persuaded me into saying yes to the relationship... Lim a virgin and never had a kiss] so I was like l'll do it for a week and then say no and say things don't work and all and we started dating and all in start it was all good I was liking the attention and after some time we got into all kissing and stuff and I was liking it but it turned out I was enjoying the make out not her...! tried to break up but again she starts crying and all and I'm that kind of person who can't make anyone cry because of me so I stayed a little longer and then I went into college so the long distance and it started geeting toxic and at call we could talk and all but in person it felt weird... sitting next to her or anything I never liked the fact that we are in relationship neither I liked her and she too said she liked me and all but her actions was different... her actions were never like what a relationship partner should do.... Actually she had someone in her life before me and she (say Y) was 6 years older than her but she was already in a relationship with a boy and
X and Y called each other as mommy and daughter
They were not related at all and they were living together like y had a flat and x used to sleep 2 days at home and 3 days with y
But x always did relationship stuff (not sex) with y but never with me. She always had weird affection towards y and I always felt like I was side chick for physical needs and main relationship was with y
Anyways so the physical was also never sex it was always make out and she went down on me once
She drank alcohol and partied like crazy and she smokes and I hate people who smokes and drink
And when I went to club for the 1st time she called me throughout and made a mess and was constantly like what are u doing where ru why are you not in hostel and all and at my every happy event when I come home after attending and tell her about it on call she would ruin it and fight like every fucking event starting from my freshers to farewell and this toxic relationship went on till 2023 end and it was started in 2020or 2021 starting
But when I ended it I never felt a thing I tried to do it before like end the relationship she would do stupid stuff and go crazy and even after this breakup she has cut marks on her arm near elbow and and she cut her hair and all But I actually like boys and never felt a thing about any girl in fact I actually liked someone my junior a boy and wished he could be my bf
I'm confused I'm straight or bi ?
But I really like MM romance books like god of fury and hunt the villain
Does that make me bi or gay?