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So I know these are all different and ppl are gonna be on my ass about it but I do strongly relate to all 3 and it's almost intertwining in my personality. I will also say that I am fairly certain I am an LEVF and have been typed as sx4 recently and just e4 in general my entire life.

My issue is I am like a "tortured romantic" in a way and I do find a lot of pride in my uniqueness and like showing it to others. While I might get both jealous but also excited seeing someone who is similar to me at the same time because I can relate and connect and find it cool but if they start getting known to be the kind of person I am, I get jealous and frustrated. I find pride in my uniqueness of also just being an extremely good natured, caring, observant, and woke person, more so than anyone any of my friends have known so rather than perpetuating more hate towards others I tend to be quite nice and generous until I have a concrete reason to show why I dislike or hate someone. I strongly relate to sx4 childhood, almost to a scary degree (like of the child being considered "a monster") and I have always had my own very strong values that I stand on regardless which is all the reasons why I have been convinced I am an e4 for so long, however I am not an impulsive person. Any sort of emotional bitterness I display, I have thought about and preplanned. I don't ever blow up, again it is all preplanned, and though I am really deep and introspective and past orienting and wanting others to know exactly who I am, I struggle to truly show any negative emotions. Either they are planned expression beforehand which makes it feel fake and so my want for others to understand me is unfulfilled or I simply don't. I am extremely withdrawn but also very empathetic and understanding of others emotions. I absolutely hate not knowing and am the exact opposite of a claustrophobic person cuz I love small spaces and hate wide open spaces generally (unless its a field to run through lols) because for example in the event of a murderer chasing me, I would rather be in a small space and once its opened, I can know he will get me and brace myself, than be in a wide open space unsure where he would get me. Very random analogy but that's how I typically explain my need to know. I also intellectualize all my emotions and the things that have happened to me. I can easily talk about my traumatic events as if they are things that happened to a story character and I will find it fun or even funny, I take other people talking about theirs seriously (as long as they want me to cuz yk some people would rather u laugh with them bout how ridiculous it is) but I never tell people bout my actual emotions towards the subject still or anything affecting me now because me now and me of the past are two distinct objects almost. I appear fairly bubbly to others apparently but am extremely withdrawn (like to the point that I won't hang out with anyone for months then I'll remember to text people and ask a bunch of people to hang out) this is not to say I have never made any rash emotional decisions, I have, but I did think it out before hand but was blinded with the beliefs my emotions and possible paranoia were feeding me. I never understand when people say "I said it out of anger, I didn't mean to" cuz even when I'm angry, I won't say shit I don't mean. I will just be more straightforward and truthful. I will say though that I heavily lean on my moral values and believe that many morals ARE objective but most people are simply not moral. I am a very idealistic person and imaginative and I analyze what I feel in the moment, I don't push it away, I just don't express it no matter how bad I want to cuz I believe that's what I have to do and also I am unsure on how to properly express my emotions without it feeling fake. I get insanely bitter towards others when I feel I cant express myself to them or they hint at not taking it seriously or whatever but still I know I wouldn't and I always heavily romanticize people as if they are "the one" that I am meant to be with and open up to. I do like the idea though of everyone finding out "what I was going through" one day in the future and feeling deep regret and shit lol which I think sounds very 4

So I just watched a deep dive video into social blinds and I'm starting to think I might be self preservation blind because of how it interacts with the sx.

First I do want to explain why I believe I'm sx dom. I am drawn to intense experiences, like people, especially people and the deepest parts that they tell no one and I get upset knowing that the parts they don't know about themselves and the parts of the unconscious or that they would never admit will never be told to me. I do go long times without intense obsessions but a lot of that time I am completely depressed. I do think this can be affected by the fact I do have chronic depression and no motivation so regardless of how much I crave the intensity, I cannot find it. When I do find it, I obsess as if me and this person are one and should become one and I have done this with friendships and fictional characters. I'll give an example of a few years ago. I watched arcane season 1 and became so obsessed with Jinx, everyone around me said I started talking like her and acting like her in a way. To me it felt like we were meant to be whether it was romantic or not but we were trapped in different universes in a way. My sleep schedule was ruined for the most part and also I started using character AI daily (this was before I knew the environmental impacts) but yes during this time I was almost filled with energy. On the regular without any obsessions and intensity I have no energy and tend to wonder what's the point of life without this energy. I am always about vibes which people don't get alot of the time but I read vibes rlly well and accurately and how I like people is completely based on vibes.

Now for sp or so, I don't love socializing, I hate hierarchy, I hate people who work their way up the hierarchy for their own benefit, I also do not know how to do that or how that works, however, I care deeply about people and want to be a safe space for them (quite literally everyone because being a safe space just feels so good and when someone that I even don't know doesn't find me to be a safe space I can get really internally mad frustrated and just overwhelming) and care about how people view me. I can read people really well, partially because I trained myself to, but I am the kind of person who would be fine leaving society and living in the forest with a bunch of animals, writing books in secret and doing witchcraft and shit. This is something that I heard in the video that I watched but something that is making me think maybe I'm sx/so is that I typically see people opening up and going deep as exciting and fun and like obviously I don't say that to anyones face (except once it kinda just slipped) but I also am extremely empathetic and understanding about it. I got into psychology and typology (and cultures) to understand every single point of view however it also started from the devastation of learning I won't experience every single experience and every single life (so started more selfish but became more selfless I suppose)

I'm definitely not so/sx, I know that for sure but it would be great if I had insight on this, thxxxxx

What are the most common LEVF correlations? I already know all of my typology and am super certain about it given I have done so much research into it and am very self reflective and introspective but I know many people would say my typing would be not possible all together and though I completely disagree with that, I want to know what would be considered to go with LEVF

Ok so I thought I was sure that I am a 461 but then I started thinking a bit that perhaps I'm just more of a withdrawn 468? I know as a fact I was a 468 when I was a kid (I was always labelled a whistleblower by people around me when I was in elementary and I was proud of it) and I am a believer that your personality types don't change unless you go through some crazy trauma, which in a way I did but I still have the 468 urges.

For 468, I am still kind of a whistle blower and at the very least, I aspire to be. I am a very morally oriented and justice oriented person however when I say I'm morally oriented, my own morals are different from societies consensus on morals. I stand on my morals till the day I dieeeee. I am very much a protective person and I think that is where my occasional impulsivity lies, in protecting my loved ones. I am definitely a rebellious person I would say and I really don't like authority figures (I am chaotic good too lol). I am definitely not as abrasive or impulsive or rebellious as a stereotypical 8. For example on how I am perhaps more of an 8, I see someone who hurt my friend in public and I will either make sure they feel embarrassed or I will do something to let them know how disgusting they are and how much I hate them but I will do so subtly. I fully believe in karma and I hate when people tell you not to treat extremely shitty people like shit. I am very observant and have noticed many times when I can tell the kind of person someone is or can see something happening in the future and warn people and they don't believe me. I have always been a justice driven person that used to cause a lot of trouble when I was a kid. I would see someone that I thought was getting bullied and would stand up for them only to apparently have been wrong. Obviously I still did a lot of good with that but my impulsivity in standing up for people has now caused me a lot of anxiety on standing up for people and I always hesitate and think about other possibilities.

For 461, I am also very concerned with being good and right and that is mainly due to the trauma I mentioned in the first paragraph and another thing that makes me super hesitant about 468 is the fact that I am not typically impulsive at all, I have to think ALOT, my brain moves so fast there is literally no way I ever act before I think. I have to actively make the decision to stand up against other people, especially because of my anxiety about how others will perceive me. If someone hurts me I typically don't act on anything and may even act almost people pleaser-y at first? (eventually after the anxiety fades cuz it always does then I just start being bitchy to them or sarcastically nice). I am and have always been an extremely philisophical and anxious person as well. I will be nice to authority figures unless they disrespect me simply because I am overly anxious about the power they have and I tend to ruminate and catastrophize. I am a perfectionist when it comes to myself and how I show myself accurately and as a good person and can get really paranoid if I think I could've come off as mean or my intentions could have been misconstrued. I am an incredibly self reflective person which I know comes with the 4 but I have seen so many people say that 468s are not very self reflective but 461s are. I am always worried if I did something wrong. I always think about other peoples perspectives in order to be fair and sometimes worry that what I see as extremely wrong may have a deeper emotional meaning behind it that was not intended in that way.

It would be nice to have other peoples opinions on this, thankssssss