How can I reconnect with God and start praying more?
I want to reconnect with God and start praying again, but every time I try, I end up pushing myself away. When I came out as a lesbian around 13 or 14, my mom, who is very religious and a Christian, forced me to pray with her. She told me I was going to hell, and that being a lesbian was a sin. She grew up in this faith, and so she passed it down to me. When I was around 19, I went through a period where I really tried I prayed, I watched videos, listened to gospel music, but eventually, I pulled away again. And this has been a cycle over the years. I come close, and then I push it away. But right now, I feel like this is the right moment. I really want to reconnect with God in a way that's healthy and real for me.
Has anyone else been through something like this? Any advice on where to begin?´
Right now i am 21 years old