Suspected MCAS and coming to grips with the fact that it will never really go away
Hello! I’m a young adult who has been struggling with what I’m pretty sure is a mix of MCAS and HEDS, as my symptoms closely align and my mother if diagnosed with those conditions. Whether or not that is exactly what it is on paper, my inability to move, eat, and get restful sleep is constantly compromised. These issues started up in my freshman year, and I ended up dropping out of school and having to get a GED because my pain was too severe. I had such high hopes for myself as an athlete, but when you can’t get nutrients or reliably exercise or move those dreams get dashed pretty fast.
My therapist has told me i realistically need to accept that I’m disabled, and probably always will be to some degree. That I’m not going to be able to do the highly physical jobs that make me feel fulfilled because it’ll end up hurting me and I can’t eat enough to make up the calories. It’s really devastating me because I’m in worse health than my mom with MCAS HEDS and POTS. While I keep trying everyday to get better, it feels like it doesn’t truly improve at all. My pain has been lowered now that I’m on cromolyn sodium, but it’s not even my own prescription, my mother has been giving me hers. My nerve sensitivity is gone, but my joints are still agonizingly inflamed and my stomach is delicate as a daisy even on my low histamine low nickel diet.
I just want this to go away, I want to be able to ride horses and teach kids how to do the same. I would like to be able to attend my college classes in person, to be able to push through the pain. But I don’t think I can. I need to know if anyone else has felt this block, how do I make the feeling of un-fulfillment leave my chest while my body feels like it’s actively failing on me? I can barely stand up long enough to shower without pain medication. Every time I start regaining the function to do what I love it’s only a matter of time before I crash and burn. How do I push through the pain? Is it possible, or is it something I’ll always have to adapt my life to?
Sorry if formatting is off I use mobile. Let me know if my post doesn’t fit since I’m not officially diagnosed, and I will delete it. Officially my disorders are GERD, Hypermobility, Visceral Hyperalgesia, Functional Abdominal Pain Syndrome, Asthma, and IBS. My current doctors think that it’s just a nerve issue, but considering it’s almost never triggered if I don’t eat or breathe in the outside air its at the very least an allergy response. I have a visit with the family physician my mom saw that helped diagnose her in a few months.