Some days are just hard.
I miss my life. I miss how my body used to be. I miss being able to wear makeup. I miss being able to drink coffee and eat chocolate. I miss being able to travel. I miss being able to get my hair done. I miss being able to go out and not react to perfume even from 50 ft away outside. I miss being able to put things on my skin. I miss my career that I had to give up. I was a D1 athlete and now can barely run.
My MCAS has become severe and progressively worsened over the past few years. I was just in a severe flare for over a year. No medication really puts a dent in symptoms. I find the medicine is far behind and lacking. I am only 31 and have already been dealing with this for 5 years. Doctors seem completely lost.
Sorry to be a downer, but this has just really been getting to me lately.