u/Princess2oo2

I have been married to my husband for 6 years. We have 2 small children. 4 and 1. I have been unhappy for years. I feel emotionally unsafe here and I’ve been clocked out for years. I hate the version of myself I have become. I’m always angry or irritated. I’m AlWAYS stressed by habits he can’t shake. I just want to feel at peace. I’m not in love with him anymore….

For some reason I feel like I can’t let go. The reality hits me and it sucks. I feel like the worst mom in the world. Like I’m just turning away from regular marriage problems but then I tell myself marriages are work but shouldn’t be this hard. I’m so afraid of breaking apart my family but we are roommates now.

Any and all advice are so needed. I’m drowning everyday in the decision to stay or to leave.

I’m recently going through a tough spot in my life and in my marriage. I got married young and after everything I’ve been through with my partner I don’t love him and I’m incredibly unhappy. I have been so torn about staying or going I told him how I was feeling and where I was at and then I told him I was staying to try things one last time. I did a reading with an old friend who knows nothing of the situation. The reading was spot on to how I was feeling. What was underlying in our relationship. It was like someone opened up my soul,heart, and mind in these cards. The cards said the outcome of leaving would be far more rewarding for me with community love and wealth. The card I pulled for staying was hangman. Now I’m in my head again about all of this. Are they real? how do I navigate after such a spot on reading? I’m so conflicted.