u/Prize-Yak-4549

I'm autistic and it's hard for me to be motivated in things, even the things I like and want to do. But I guess with porn and other sexual stuff, the reward is immediate.

I remember once I stayed up all night just listening to erotic ASMR audios and I realized that I've never really done that before. Even when I'm watching a movie I'm really enjoying late into the night if I get tired I just have to stop. But I never stopped this time. I wasn't even trying to go to sleep either. Im just so frustrated and really just disgusted with my self. I just feel like such a pervert I guess and it makes me depressed to know porn is one of the things I can happily spend hours on but not the things I really want to do...

sorry if I just posed it I used the wrong account. Don't want this affiliated with my main account

I'm autistic and it's hard for me to be motivated in things, even the things I like and want to do. But I guess with porn and other sexual stuff, the reward is immediate.

I remember once I stayed up all night just listening to erotic ASMR audios and I realized that I've never really done that before. Even when I'm watching a movie I'm really enjoying late into the night if I get tired I just have to stop. But I never stopped this time. Im just so frustrated and really just disgusted with my self. I just feel like such a pervert I guess and it makes me depressed to know porn is one of the things I can happily spend hours on but not the things I really want to do......