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Looking at the Leo Vince. Idk about exhausts much yet, am still learning.. do I just get the slip on or do full system? What’s the pros and cons, or any advice welcome, Tia:)

I ended up going to an inpatient for about a week. Well Er, then crisis till I got a bed in inpatient.. what put me in there was something that was extremely triggering, hints why.. anyways since being in my bf of almost two years said while I was in there over the phone that this was “embarrassing” so I said oh okay and then said I’d see him when I got out. Then I see him like a day an a half later. Since I’ve been out he’s really showed little to no empathy or anything at all, he said in his pov since I got out I should be “the perfect gf” to basically make up for what happened and I was like excuse me?? I just went thru some of the most mentally challenged experience ive been thrue and ur going to ask me to be the best version of myself.. idk what to do he doesn’t care ab mental health at all and im struggling. I need help in a partner and I told him this..,

I(24f) have been in a relationship for almost 2 years. Before my partner now I was in a relationship from 14-21. I don’t still have feelings for my ex but the relationship had affected me in ways. And he broke up w me over txt after living together since 16 yrs old. The lack of respect and using me as a place holder is what hurts me and what I don’t want repeated, dropped me like I was nothing and never to be seen again, I was the one who had to move everything etc.. I just don’t want that to happen again.. my bf claims I’m not over him, I’m just hurt by the fact that I meant as little as that to someone after all the effort I put in for 7 years. But I was thankful for the relationship to end, it was a blessing in disguise really, I pretty much immediately felt such a weight off my shoulders. But me and my partner now are getting to two years. I told him in the beginning I won’t go past 3 years w out marriage but life hasn’t been very easy for us so it seems like that’s not going to happen and I’m afraid I’m being used again and that I’m just going to be some placeholder here in support of him for him to drop me when he’s ready to settle down. Idk how to not worry about the future. The future is what I’m so excited for and what I live for. I cannot wait to be married and have kids. Obviously I’m not ready yet but when I am ready I cannot wait!

My bf is great, he’s extremely patient and kind. He goes above and beyond trying to provide for me. He’s seen some shit w me and we’ve been thru a lot together. But I feel like I’ve completely lost myself. I haven’t been working due to mental health as well as street bike being my transportation since bf has to take the car. I’ve given up on my appearance basically. I’ve been slacking really hard w cleaning and such. I feel like he’s pouring into me while I haven’t been able to do the same for him. How can I get out of this little hole I’m in. I just want to feel joy and happiness, there’s no reason I shouldn’t be.

It’s really hard to go from having complete breakdown episodes to just coughing up an attitude or being moody bc I am a girl. It’s like oop I’m a bit moody so now I’m just being “so mean and crazy”. Oop I feel this way, now I’m just “ crazy “ and then get pushed to have a reaction.. it’s like I try so hard to not have a breakdown, I sit down and talk calmly and bring up an issue or something then I’m pushed until I have a reaction. Then I’m crazy again.

I’ve just finished watching the show first time through and I loved it and want more. Are the books even better than the show or did the show do them justice? Do the books continue to talk about after marriage a bit more and tie up the characters better?

I was having a rough day and then it turned into more and had a pretty rough “episode” or whatever u wanna call it. I’ve been trying really hard to not harm myself anymore but it just gets out of control. I started banging my head and my crystal necklace got in between my head and the ground and split my head open and immediately started pouring blood everywhere.. I fought passing out pretty hard bc I’m terrified of passing out and never have. I lost all feeling in my hands and arms and couldn’t move my hands and my vision had started to go black. It was super scary. My boyfriend rushed me to the er and I had to get 4 staples put in my head..
so now I’m sitting here with an immense amount of shame, guilt and just shock. I feel so bad for my bf and what he had to witness..

I was diagnosed the beginning of this year and I am 24. I went off my meds bc they started affecting me in ways I didn’t like then life got super chaotic and I couldn’t make my appts. Which is totally my fault for not prioritizing and taking this illness seriously.. idk what my deal is. I want help but deep down I think denying help is a way of harming myself maybe? I’ve always been so against any medication even just ibuprofen since I grew up with a bipolar mother so I know that has to do with it too.. but I will be calling my psychiatrist and making an appt today..

I hope this gets better:/