I [23F] feel insecure over my [24M] boyfriend’s TikTok watch history
I [23F] feel insecure over my [24M] boyfriend’s TikTok watch history. Before my boyfriend and I started officially dating, last April, I noticed he followed a lot of gorgeous women on TikTok. None of them honestly looked like me. I’m a midsize girl and just average looking. I talked to him about his following and told him it made me insecure. He unfollowed the girls right away.
This past month my bf went on a spiel about how he wanted to delete TikTok, his only form of social media off his phone. Although he signed into his account on my phone for occasional brainrot doomscrolls. One night I had a weird feeling and decided to go through his watch history. Yes, I know this is bad, but temptation won me over. As I scrolled through I found multiple videos of these girls again. He’d find a girls profile then binge through their pages.
One of these scrolling episodes was just days after our first anniversary. Which is in May.
I confronted him immediately after. I asked him why and he said he had a lust addiction and that was part of the reason he’d deleted the app. That he was sorry and would be more honest with me in the future.
It’s been almost a month since that main conversation, followed with small ones after. I can’t seem to get over it. I think about it at least once a day and question my own looks and if he truly finds me attractive. Some days I just stare at myself in the mirror and I feel sad and understand why he would look at those girls. I simply just don’t compare. I really don’t know what my next move should be. I genuinely love him but I just can’t get over it. I need advice.
TLDR: I [23F] feel insecure over my [24M] boyfriend’s TikTok watch history. Before we started dating I talked to him about him following dozens of girls. He unfollowed them. Although a year later, I saw him viewing multiple girls on TikTok, scrolling through their profiles and binging their videos, just days after our first anniversary. I’m really insecure about it, and keep thinking about it. What should I do?