u/ProfessorIcy6944

It's been on my mind more n more with all these bad, out of the blue type storms. That has tons of flooding, snow & hail, hurricane winds, hurricane & tornados in all these in areas across the US that normally don't have this type of weather this bad this often.

It's happened everywhere since Spring weather started months ago. Seems weird to me. I feel something horrible is coming...DAE?

It's been on my mind more n more with all these bad, out of the blue type storms. That has tons of flooding, snow & hail, hurricane winds, hurricane & tornados in all these in areas across the US that normally don't have this type of weather this bad this often.

It's happened everywhere since Spring weather started months ago. Seems weird to me. I feel something horrible is coming...DAE?

I'm 47 & still recovering from my upbringing of emotional/physically/sexual abuse from 5 to 13 from my step father. Who by the way my mom is still married to. No one I told including my mom believed me when I finally told them. I heard, Nah ur learning bad shit when u hv visits with ur real dad so no more visits to ur dad's house or there's no way 'Bob' could of did that to you he's to nice of a guy. He's so good to ur mom, there's no way. Noone knew of the abuse he was doing to my mom either. Everything to this day has been brushed under the rug. So I always wonder if all this bad shit never happened to me what type of person would I have become? Anyone else?

Never have I ever been so ready in my life where I want to talk sit down and talk them BOTH (Mom & Bob) Look them BOTH in the eyes & tell them how bad they F me up. How bad I want to PROVE that I wasn't lying that Bob took every bit of innocence I had as a child away. And how my mom supposed to be my protector from the "monsters" yet constantly sides with him then & now. OR how bad I want to run far away from them & never see them again until my mom dies. The idea of going to their house for holidays or get togethers makes my stomach turn. I still have to see my abuser. And my abuser thinks he's won. Karma has my back though....one day she'll happen & I hope I there to see it! He was also very physically and emotionally abusive to my mom but now he has her 'thinking' she wears the pants, that what she says goes BUT I can see right through his narcissistic tendencies. Like my mom doesn't have friends nor does she ever go anywhere to hang out without him. And if she spends like to much of her time helping her mom or dad, he throws a hissy fit. Says well ur always doing everything for them & nothing for our marriage. She always has to 'run things' by him first. She hides giving me $ here n there, don't let Bob find out. Like she's blinded by him still mentally abusing her. Yeah, he may not physically abuse her now but he's good at those mind games. Hate is a powerful word but I hate him! He's the devil. Now my mom is kinda like my friend we can talk about everything EXCEPT all the abuse. She tried telling me that we think alike & are alike in so many ways. Yeah to some things BUT no we are complete opposites. She tells him all my business so I don't tell her much cause he's the ONLY person she has to talk to. I sometimes feel sorry for her. I have a voice that I use often to say WTF I want, do what I want when I want & if someone is doing something I don't agree with I tell them. I'm not just gonna agree with someone when I know that it isnt right or whatever. Like letting people know the truth & not just say what they wanna hear. Shes opposite will say what they wanna hear. So there's no conflict. But then she'll get mad when like a person ask for her advice but they don't take it. Then bitch at me about it. Then I'm like well u should of told them how it is. It's so hard to explain just by writing this. Does anyone understand what I'm getting at? Even though all this bad shit happened to me sometimes I feel as if I would of been blinded by not being able to weed out who the monsters are now. Like it was a 'good' thing. Like would I have become someone financially successful or kind hearted or someone who actually had their head on right or would I lived my life without using alcohol & drugs or wouldn't of slept with any man who gv me that attention I was craving or would I of still had my 1st child at the age of 17....Ya know stuff like that. But I also think about how my whole life story would make a great book...

I've always wondered if anyone else thinks like I do?!? Do you ever think like while you're driving or even just sitting at home, how many actual serial killers, murderers or r@pist we actually have driven by or possibly came in contact with or maybe they live in our neighborhood but we just have no absolute clue. Idky but it's something that's always on my mind. Especially with how the world is nowadays. You just never know... Could be your neighbor or your best friend's grandpappy or your gf/bf Aunt or Uncle or even the mailman! 🤷🏽‍♀️