I had a crush on my guy friend
When I fist started at my uni I saw this really cute guy and got an instant crush he was tall, Russian and mysterious, I then was a bit of a stalker and found out that he lived in the first floor of our student home. The first floor had a study room and a tv room. I decided I would go and study in the study room and maybe “accidentally” run into him. It was just my luck that as I finished studying I saw he was in the tv room, so the next day I decided to study in the tv room. Aaannnd guess who came!!! My crush!!!!! Let’s call him Dick, and his friends, I then sat in the tv room everyday and I became friends with all of them. One night I got really drunk and we hung out and we had sex (I was a virgin). Long story short he didn’t want anything serious and I got another crush on his best friend ( what a bird I know😭😭) let’s call him Franz. So me franz and Habibi( this is my other friend) were a threesome (that is what I call best friend groups of three). And I had the biggest crush on franz and I thought he liked me too. One day he asked our friend Maria if he should ask a girl to go ice skating which I overheard. And the next day he asked me to go ice skating. I thought he was probably asking about me. I said yeah but I told him I had to leave later in the night cause my friend was setting me up with her boyfriend’s friend :((, maybe that was wrong. So we went together to the city and we had wine and we looked at thrift stores, we didn’t go ice skating as planned?? It was really fun until habibi called and asked what we were doing. Franz then invited him to come, which really upset me cause I kinda thought it was a date, I have never been asked on a date before so I was really excited and nervous. Anyways me habibi and Franz hung out and then my friends came and Franz found these girls and he was flirting with them and he left with them and I cried. Anyways we still stayed friends, then came my birthday, I told Franz about my guy best friend that I had in school that had taken me to prom and I took him, I was in love with him and then when I moved countries he started dating my best friend, I told him how much it hurt me. On my birthday party the next day he went and flirted with my friend in my face. From then on he always told me how he wants to just fuck my friend and if she was gonna be there at the function. Then May came around and there was a joint uni party, me and Franz got very drunk and we had sex in the forest. He asked what we were gonna be after but I said it didn’t matter anymore cause I was planning on moving cities. We then fucked in my room but it hurt and he didn’t want to stop and then he broke the condom and came inside me, nobody had ever came inside me. And I hadn’t had much experience in sex. Afterwards he asked if he should stay or go but I said he can stay, but he left first thing in the morning, and came back just to give me a morning after pill after I begged him to. He then didn’t really speak to me for two months. Then we started talking again and he would ask me what I was up to in the middle of the night and where I was at, when he was done going out and partying, but he knew where I was at cause I live above him and he knew where I was cause he had seen me in my room, anyways. So then me Franz and his friend from school drank together me and and his friend made fun of Franz, so Franz said he’s going to bed and the friend can sleep with me, the friend was a guy mind you. So the friend came to my room and we talked until 4 o clock and then I told him to call Franz, and Franz asked if him and” did you fuck her” and I was shocked he would think that, because all I could think about was Franz and all I was asking about was Franz, so I sent the friend to Franz out of my room. Then I didn’t know what to do and I sent him some texts the next day and he said we should be friends with benefits and we came up with the conclusion that that was a good idea, then that same day I flew back home. When I came back I asked when he wanted to hang out and he said that weekend and then I was like nah I want to go to Czechia that weekend what about the next one, so he said yes and the I called closer to the time and he was like what do you wanna do, we probably aren’t gonna leave the room bla bla (hinting at sex stuff) whatever and I was like idek maybe we can go to Linz or whatever we will see. So he comes on Saturday and guess what he has asked his other friend to come with us to the pool and he decides not to sleep over after that was the whole plan cause he was drinking the day before. And then we all get Döner and he says how he’s been trying to get with my same friend and like that stuff. So when he goes home I call and I’m like do you still wanna be friends with benefits and he’s like yeah I just was tired today. And then I call him again and I’m like can you get tested and he’s like okay but like when are you getting tested and I’m like I already got tested cause I got an iud and you have to get tested for that and he said okay he will, but condoms also help, (its free to get tested where we live) and he was like is that all you called for and I was like yeah and he was like oh I thought you wanted to call for something else and I was like what are you on about? But he didn’t say. Do you think I should fuck him one more time and then end things, or end things completely?? Am I kinda in the wrong??? I don’t really feel like I am though, he really hurt me a lot and I love him.