Venting: wrong time to pursue but damn
I’m so damn attracted to the looks, character and accomplishments of this woman who has made it clear that she wants to explore something serious with me if I demonstrate that I’m in it for real and pursue her. I don’t think she realises how into her I am, I worry she thinks I’m just fooling around.
However I have life circumstances in the way that prevents me from moving forward, most of all having to sort out my social situation, clean up my romantic life and build my income streams, meaning that this isn’t the moment to start something with her. I have made some bold moves to change my life up and need to lock in. I don’t think she’d be into someone who is in the middle of figuring everything out and I personally don’t want to add to the current complexity of my life either.
We don’t know each other all too well yet so I don’t know what dynamic I’d be walking into, but I am scared I’ll fall head over heels and either get hurt like hell OR just be really damn distracted from building my life. She already has my head spinning for days sometimes so I can’t deal with any more emotions while handling business.
I find it disrespectful to ask her to wait because I’ve already hurt her so I’ve just been silent but damn I want her so bad it hurts. I will FOR SURE make a proper move when the time comes but it might be she’s just over me by then and tells me to fuck off.