u/PsychoticKitten3

So I've looked around and been able to lock in what version on BSmanager to use, (1.40.8) which I think I'm already on. I was wondering what mods people use to change the way their playthrough is recorded? Or what settings to specially look for to make sure my recording isn't off center/zoomed in a ton. I also want to know if there is a multiplayer mod that allows each user to select their difficulty? I have plenty of maps with a wide range of difficulties so whenever my older sister plays with me she can pick but the multiplayer mod I downloaded didn't even allow either of us to select songs we've downloaded ourselves. This was earlier in the year, say between jan~feb.

I remember modding BS in like 2022 and was able to use a multiplayer mod that allowed my friends and I to select from our songs list and pick our own difficulties and tried searching for it again but it's just been too long. It's also a bit overwhelming trying to figure out which mods are best for me getting started again so I will appreciate any help I can get from the community.

Also, if you have a mean comment or wanna be a smartalec, please just skip my post. I know what I'm asking might be simple and/or easy for other users but I just want general help and guidance to prevent myself from running in circles looking for something. Thank you again I appreciate the help!

Sorry in advance for how long this is. I just needed to let some of this out.

Mom and big sis have been awful lately. I feel like they tell me they love me then let me down in moments I felt like I really needed them the most. Emotionally at least. Mom holds it all over my head and then blames me for how I feel about her shitty behavior.

Big sister has been giving my ex updates on our family members passing and when I tried to tell her it made me uncomfortable she basically told me she didn't think it mattered bc it wasn't about *me* but jesus dad he was AWFUL! Do I have to tell her how in the last 4 years of the relationship, his abuse lead me to several "attempts" in the past years we were together for her to just stop talking to him about our family? No he's never laid a hand on me but he was not my safe space. I couldn't even try to have a calm talk about anything without him turning it around on me over and over and over again. God he used the promise you had him make with you to, "take care of me" when you were gone in talks HE turned into arguments against me.

I know he was there for us when you were at the cancer hospital but I only had 2 good years with that relationship and it all went down hill when we moved in together. She told me she would have my back no matter what! I told her, "we hate him." Shouldn't that have been enough for her to just at least onky be friendly in passing and nothing more?

AYE and your SISTER! Daddy I can't with her anymore. First (not really) it was her stealing money from mom and claiming it as rightfully hers bc she helped her FOR FREE with the financial paperwork while you were sick and after you were gone. Then she just turned the phone call about herself and asked questions about if mom still had any of your money leftover when the call was supposed to be about an update on tia in the hospital.

I wish you were here. You always had all the answers and you helped my voice be heard so much. I feel like you were the only person in the immediate family that took my feelings seriously.

I just don't know what else to do. .all mom did after you passed away was complain about me to my sister over the phone whenever I stayed in, went out, played on my games. You told me to be her rock and to continue living my life. Then when i moved 6 hours away, got a state job with great bennies, all she wanted to do when SHE called ME was start an argument not even 2 minutes into the call. I stopped answering and she just switched to talking to sis asking, "where did i go wrong?" I don't know mom, I thought I turned out fine honestly. . .

I don't think ive heard her tell me she's proud of me since my high-school graduation. Im about to be earning more than sis and I know im not married yet but my current SO is amazing. I got a better job with the same place but different area and im happy here. My friends have been wonderful, ive got three aquariums I love and take care of and a TON of cute old lady coded shelves with hearts in them that my sweetheart puts up for me.

You'd really like him. He loves me so much and treats me so well. He's kind, funny, handsome, supports me and pushes me to try new things even if they scare me a little. Its been a year and a half with him now, I hope he proposes soon or I might just buy us some cute Etsy rings and elope haha. Just kidding. .maybe. its tempting. Day one he was on board with future planning and furnishing the place the way we wanted it after ex moved out and left us to deal with the mess.

I'm healing from it all though, and as bad as the breakup was, it seems like there might be a chance at some type of acquaintance friendship. There's so much more but this is already so long and so sad so i hope the ending helped with that. I miss you so much dad and I wish you were here. I hope i make you proud.