u/PulandoAgain

I’m not gonna sit here and tell you my whole life magically flipped upside down or whatever. It’s just about finally getting my head straight. I’ve been stuck in this loop since I was 12 so it went on for so long that I didn’t even realize how much it was draining my energy and messing with my mood. It just felt normal I guess.
If the dates look a bit weird I started on December 31st. I was staying at a cottage with some friends for New Year’s so I just figured whatever I'll start a day early lol.
That first month was easily the worst part. I knew my willpower was non-existent back then so I just locked everything down. I put a blocker on my phone on strict mode so I couldn't bypass it and changed the DNS on my PC to a family filter to block all the sites.
Something that really stuck with me around that time was hearing about how if you actually record yourself wanking and watch it back later it is the biggest reality check ever. Just seeing yourself look like a total loser sitting there with your phone in your hand is enough to make you completely rethink everything.
The main thing that changed was after those first 30 days. I actually turned the blockers off because I wanted to see if I could stay clean on my own without a safety net. And it worked. I just realized I’m not that person anymore. I only turned the blocks back on today to make a quick screenshot to show how I set it up for the first month.
Now that I'm 140 days in things are just easier. I feel way more grounded and things don't really get to me or mess with my head like they used to. My social life is a bit different too. Before this I had zero interest in dating or meeting anyone but lately I’ve actually been going out and it’s fine because I’m actually enjoying hanging out with people. The overall vibe is just better. Hard to explain but the fog is gone and everything feels a bit more real.
If you’ve been stuck in this since you were a kid it’s worth the grind. That first month is a pain but the clarity on the other side is different.

Honestly, I’m not gonna sit here and tell you my whole life magically flipped upside down or whatever. It’s just about finally getting my head straight. I’ve been stuck in this loop since I was 12 so it went on for so long that I didn’t even realize how much it was draining my energy and messing with my mood. It just felt normal I guess.
If the dates look a bit weird I started on December 31st. I was staying at a cottage with some friends for New Year’s so I just figured whatever I'll start a day early lol
That first month was easily the worst part... I knew my willpower was non-existent back then so I just locked everything down. I put a blocker on my phone on strict mode so I couldn't bypass it and changed the DNS on my PC to a family filter to block all the sites.
The main thing that changed was after those first 30 days. I actually turned the blockers off because I wanted to see if I could stay clean on my own without a safety net. And it worked. I just realized I’m not that person anymore. I only turned the blocks back on today to make a quick screenshot to show how I set it up for the first month.
Now that I'm 140 days in things are just easier. I feel way more grounded and things don't really get to me or mess with my head like they used to. My social life is a bit different too. Before this I had zero interest in dating or meeting anyone but lately I’ve actually been going out and it’s fine because I’m actually enjoying hanging out with people. The overall vibe is just better. Hard to explain but the fog is gone and everything feels a bit more real.
If you’ve been stuck in this since you were a kid it’s worth the grind. That first month is a pain but the clarity on the other side is different.

So I hit 120 days today and figured I’d share since this community helped me a lot in the beginning.

Started this because I was tired of feeling like shit every weekend and my gym routine was basically non-existent. Wasn’t planning on any crazy transformation or anything, just wanted to feel less garbage.

The first week was rough as expected - couldn’t sleep, everything felt boring, kept reaching for a beer that wasn’t there lol. But around day 12-13 I started noticing some weird stuff:

• Actually wanted to go to the gym instead of making excuses

• Wasn’t ordering takeout at 11pm anymore

• My face looks less puffy (probably from better sleep?)

• Pants are fitting looser but I haven’t been trying to lose weight

The money thing is real too - I didn’t realize how much I was spending on drinks until I wasn’t. Nothing crazy but definitely noticeable. Still think about drinking sometimes, especially on Friday nights when everyone’s out. But it’s not that desperate craving anymore, more like “eh, maybe I would” and then I remember how much better I feel in the mornings now.

After 120 days, I genuinely feel better overall. I finally got a jawline back, my skin doesn’t smell as bad, and the headaches are gone.

Anyone else notice the gym thing? Like I’m not suddenly jacked or anything but I actually show up consistently now instead of skipping because I’m hungover.

Anyway, just wanted to share. This sub kept me going those first few weeks when I was questioning everything.