u/Pure-Double5875

Coming up on a difficult time of year. Not only for myself but for my family as well.

9 years ago, I pulled myself together after a few traumatic experiences and depression/stress/anxiety ran my life for a while. Still, anxiety will still bring me down and depression will creep back on me too. I really don't know how I made it out of those dark times. It took a lot of work. I put a lot of people through so much worry when I didn't mean to.

Every year, same times. August-November those difficult times come back up. I wish I was stronger and able to distract myself more than I do now.

I've been crying off and on the last few days. My parents call me, tell me they notice that I've gotten quiet and just want to check on me. Can't eat, I have really broken sleep.

I just want to get through these months... and I know I will. But all the same, I still dread it.

I don't know who's reading but ... thanks all the same.

Hi there!

I'm thinking about purchasing a digital set of brushes that is used for CSP. Is installation easy for this? There are about 30+ in the packet and I'm very excited to try all of them but if anyone has any knowledge of downloading the pack beforehand (Off GumRoad), I'd like to know your experiences with it!

I've (39/F) spent most of my life struggling with stress, anxiety and depression. Some days are easier than others and I will admit that my entire 20s have been a complete blur due to traumatic experiences.

About 10 years ago, I decided I needed to change my life and find a better, meaningful way of living. It's been a good change although I do find myself still struggling with harsh anxiety at times. I've went from living a rather quiet life, kept to myself and now I'm a public figure in a small southern town... Which I quickly discover that this small town really thrives on negativity. So many people I know gossip, feed into it and I've even seen some of those people I consider friends say some of the most disgusting things about people.

I never engage in it. In fact, I'll dismiss myself from the conversation. However, I can't help but feel like those same things are being said about me. Ever since pulling out of a rut, my anxiety and depression have subsided but it will creep up on me occasionally.

The behavior really makes me want to revert back to just... being a hermit? I have such a difficult time trusting people from years of being used, abused, taken for granted and I often wonder who is actually just... being my friend, being genuine...

I don't know. I'm probably putting too much thought into it.

These last few couple of months or so have been difficult on me. I know it's just anxiety gnawing away at me and I lay awake at night dwelling on the what if's.

I can't move. I can't go anywhere and probably won't be able to go anywhere for a long, long time.

If you've read this far, thanks. Thank you for reading my jumbled thoughts...