u/Pure-Tangerine-8608

say anything. I really do not need that. Your words mean shit. Show me. Your only redemptive quality is to back up what the fuck you say. Otherwise, kick rocks.

don’t know how to handle me with care and that tells me more than I’ll ever need to know. You never even try to and that makes me cry. I can’t wait to be beyond your reach.

I am in love you. And I will take accountability and I will tell you. I’m no longer in a place of avoidance. I already know how it will go. That part doesn’t matter as much to me. It’s important that I’m honest.

Seeing you tonight brought back so many feelings. I wish I could have been healed when we had a chance. Things are so different now. I’m so happy for you. You seem really happy. You are still just as attractive as when I met you all those years ago. Damn. Maybe in another lifetime.

Dear you,

You asked how I am. I lied. Truth is I’m sad. Eternally sad. Everyone is full of shit and I can’t fix it. Everything could be great but the systems twist everything to keep us full of fear. It sickens me to see. The most beautiful people I know are close to death because they can’t stand to face reality. I can’t say I blame them. I really don’t blame them. Remember when you said that no one is coming to save me? You’re right. No one. That’s fine, I am capable on my own. You know but maybe I don’t want to watch so many people I love let the evils of the world corrupt them into the depths of a dark oblivion. Maybe I don’t want to be corrupted myself. I don’t want to be rescued from this hell. I want to be with someone special while it all burns down. I want to laugh with you and see the beauty in the pain. I want to pray and hope and build a new reality, a more beautiful day. My soul aches from the loneliness. I don’t feel right without someone to love. Someone who stays. Someone who can face the world and its demons without having a fucking mental breakdown. I really need pleasure in every way..you pumping through my veins. I need strength to wait. I need hope to guide me. I surrender every day to time and and it keeps optimistic enough to keep going. So, yea. How am I? I’m fine.

I knew you in another life. I remember those eyes. I’m familiar with your spirit. Why are we meeting up now? Was there some agreement? I am just trying to figure this out. What do you know that I don’t?

Hey. Just wanted you to know that my hope is fading. That may be what you want. Is that what you want? It’s okay if so..just be honest with me.