JUST EXPRESSING MY FEELINGS FOR THE FIRST TIME ON REDDIT
So my twin brother who is 2 minutes younger than me cracked neet this year and i couldn't...I didn't work hard neither did I study much ...now he is gonna go to College soon...he has also recently bought ipad my father got it for him...I am very happy for my brother...but at the same time I feel sad too i couldn't I have taken my 1st drop for ....am currently working hard trying my best ...their is a kind of sadness which am trying to express in words everyone on WhatsApp is congratulating my brother and also like every relative congratulates him ...I am very very happy for my brother i don't have any kind of jealousy i always prayed for him I feel sad because I couldn't make it ...I now avoid going in any family gatherings cuz I don't no how should I react as a neet failure infront of the gathering...two brothers got same study material and one couldn't make it ...i feel bad like my brother is gonna go after 1 month to college I will be alone in my room I shared my room with him since we were 8 ...am gonna miss him too he is very supportive for me ...when i come from my coaching and he is out for some work or something i feel kind of empty when he is not in my room now he is gonna go forever and rarely come Home.....I will be left alone in my room with an exam to crack for which am currently trying hard
. currently... i oftenly many times feel like i am about to cry but I control myself sometims cuz of low tests scores or sometimes because of my toxic father or sometimes because of the feeling that my brother is soon gonna go and I will miss him ....i hope I make it idk ....i just wanted to share what I was feeling from the past few days online...maybe it helps in express my feelings