I don't wanna live anymore
Hi, I need advice from you guys here.
I'm 19F, pursuing a professional course in accounting. I'm supposed to start working for a period of 2 years for my course, and I can't do it. I can't bear to stay away from home for 8 hours. I did all my studies for the past 2 years online. Going out, I feel anxious, depressed, manic, whatever you name it. I have a string of mental health issues that all crop up when I'm stressed. Achieving my goals don't make me happy and I don't see the point in living anymore.
I was a Science stream student in 12th, and switched because I found finance interesting and Science too hard. I'm strong in academics. However, I find commerce intellectually not stimulating. I don't know whether to pivot to science as I'm not thinking rationally right now, and I'll be 2 years older than all my peers. Even then, I don't know whether that would make me happy either. My parents will not heed me either as I'm known to be indecisive as well.
Please help me to stay alive.