u/QuailEast5263

Hello, everyone. I've been honestly thinking and reconsidering a lot of things regarding my addiction to substances (alcohol and, especially, tobacco and marijuana), but I can't find a clear way to understand it enough, to find a way to put an end to it.

I must say, first and foremost, that taking drugs feels great for me. I love smoking a big fat joint while sipping a beer because it makes me relaxed, at ease, totally comfortable in my own skin, able to enjoy music and conversations and/or alone time with such an enthusiasm that sobriety supposedly could never offer. I don't necessarily hate drugs, because now I know the personal benefits I get from using them.

The problem is exactly that: "real life", i.e. the life without this euphoric and exiting state induced by these substances, feels kinda like bland oatmeal. Music feels mundane, conversations feels boring, etc... Well, they may actually be in reality -- but the artificially-induced euphoria makes everything nice. Why would I want otherwise, right?

But if I could have a good life sober, I would do it. I can actually imagine something like that. I'm not sure if it is entirely possible tho, because our bodies can only produce so much dopamine at a time, and drugs liberate way more dopamine our brains could produce and handle well by themselves. I've also been in this game for more than a decade, with sober intervals and the eventual relapse. This thing of refusing the first time never worked well for me. Also, all my circle of friends have their own struggles with substance abuse and I would never distance myself from them just because of that.

Thank you for reading

Because I certainly do and, to be honest, I wish this wouldn't be that way. For many reasons, and mainly spiritual reasons, I feel mentally isolated from other people. I do have great and many friends... And I love all of them and make sure to spend a grand and good time enjoying this material life with them, because they are incredible. They are a part of me, and I am a part of them, all entrenched in this material world with all its joy and bliss, but also with misery and suffering. It all comes together, and such an intrinsically human ability to share this life with others is, in my opinion, divine in an of itself.

The problem is: when it comes to topics of spiritual life (its ups and downs), sadhana, meditation, sacred scriptures, history of religion, astrology and everything else that is more or less considered "transcendental", they (most of the time) cannot handle it. They simply dismiss me as being "weird" (which I have no problem being so) and/or mock me with the "hahahah, oh, look, he is doing it again!" sort of discourse. I mean... The topics proposed may be unconventional, for sure -- but I speak (or at least I think I do) about these subjects as if it's like any other, you know? But they don't take me seriously. Spirituality is very important to me, Moksha (liberation) is very important to me, but it is irrelevant to them. And... That's ok. So be it. Many things in life are irrelevant for me, and nonetheless here I am, writing this post. This doesn't affect me liking them at all.

Well... I have some (astrological) hypothesis as why things are that way, but I won't bore you with the details. The thing is: I don't have a guru. I don't have anyone else (apart from the internet and this community, of couse) to speak to and share common (or different) experiences about how we deal with spiritual matters, and this f'ing sucks. I wish I could speak about this knowledge with someone face to face. Oh, well...

What do you think?

Hello, everyone! I recently bought a Samsung TV (model QN43Q5FAAGXZD) which, unfortunately, runs Tizen OS, which is way too restricted and limited to my liking. I wanted to somehow connect it with my notebook to mirror it, to use the TV as a second screen from time to time - but it's impossible, because I have an 8-year-old Lenovo notebook with HDMI port version 1.4.

When I try to connect both using an HDMI 2.0 cable, the TV does mirror my screen, but with a pink/purple-tint and a lot of small moving green dots. I tried to bypass this by using a 1.4 HDMI cable and messing with the xradr app (via terminal) to adjust the amount of data exchanged between them or something, but nothing changed.

My (not so much) educated guess is that the data sent from the notebook to the TV somehow gets corrupted along the way, and there's no way to fix it unless I change the HDMI port on my notebook to a 2.0 version. But even that is not guaranteed.

I remembered I have a Mi Stick (model MiTV-AESP0 version 9), which runs Android TV. I've been using it for days to get over Tizen, and it works perfectly.

I would like to know if you guys could recommend me an Android TV app or something else that would allow me to mirror my notebook screen without the need of HDMI cables. Is it possible?