u/Queasy-Sink-2122

Am I the only one who feels like every friendship depends on my effort? Whenever I stop reaching out first, people seem to disappear. After years of this, I've started wondering if genuine long-term friendships are actually rare. Has anyone else experienced this?

I’m generally introverted, but sometimes I become very talkative, laugh a lot, and act very energetic. Afterwards I feel like people find it strange. Is this normal? How do I balance these two sides of my personality?