u/Quick-Occasion-2869

This is a dumb question but I just ordered a free hiv test online it’s coming in the mail.. and I’ve been having very bad anxiety for two weeks now. I have got tested two years ago 11/07/24 for hiv and it was negative. I’m scared shitless cause I have been promiscuous as of lately. I get checked regularly for STDs but not so often for hiv. Tho I have no symptoms I do have itchy skin and vagina ..idk if that’s just because of my allergies and I use African soap regularly which can cause breakouts and itchy skin but anywho what’s the chances of me catching hiv? I’m a black female 34 currently living in Virginia. Google said the chances are low but I have so much anxiety from taking this swab test. I’ve been up all night stressing myself out, I have really bad anxiety and haven’t been taking my meds like I should. Please educate me. Are the chances really as low as google says? I heard it was very rare and hard to contract hiv but yet so many ppl got it. I don’t do needles, don’t do anal, just vaginally

I’m ordering an std test . If I do have anything where can I order meds online that will not cost me an arm and leg lol please help me out . I do not wanna go the the clinic or er.. I wanna test in the comfort of my own home and get treated discreetly

Hello I am 34 years old and I have really bad anxiety, I’m goin to get testies soo but I’m scared shitless. I’ve have had a promiscuous life with men.. i was alcoholic and partake in I risky sex..only did anal in my 20s and I got tested negative for it but now it’s 14 years later and I’m freaking out, though I don’t do anal no more but I know yu can catch it vaginally aslo. Women out there, can you tell me your hiv stories and how you contracted it? I don’t wanna be with men anymore and I’m going to become celibate because I have a really bad health phobia.. I’ve been googling for weeks. Though I don’t have any symptoms or anything but I was told that you don’t always have symptoms while contracted hiv.. I know I’m dumb I should have been testing frequently. Never thought hiv was a big deal because they say the risk is low but as of lately I’ve been on google for days.. I seen this guy from my city exposing a girl for giving him hiv . My aunt died for aid but it was from injections and sharing needles.. I had anal twice in my 20s. I’m freaking out ladies please tell me you stories and how you contracted it.. please educate me .. anxiety is killing me

How high are the chances of me catching hiv? I am a 34yr female I used to be very promiscuous back in my days, ive been celibate for 2 months now .. I was molested as a child and I was diagnosed with bipolar depression.. a lot of men used to use me, I was very sexually active.., I’ve got tested for hiv 7 years ago and I’m going to get tested again in two months, I wanna make sure the test is accurate.. I’m just tryna make sure I am mentally ready for the results, until then I will remain celibate (I know I am grown and I’ve caused this) please don’t judge. Im scared shitless to have sex with anyone. I’m very ashamed of my past and it’s haunting me til this day, I would get blacked out drunk and participate in risky behavior. I only had anal sex twice and that was years ago. I’m not really educated on hiv and I’ve been on google for weeks now smh . How easy is it to catch HIV vaginally? My anxiety is really bad like I’m shaking and everything thinking I could possibly have it. I’m starting to feel physically sick just the thought of having it. I know many of you thinking why didn’t i stay getting tested for HIV knowing I was promiscuous. I was young and dumb I would take many of std test but not test for hiv . Didn’t think it was a big deal until I got a little older, I thought it was more risky to get it for gay males (I’m dumb I know) please do not judge me . As of lately I’ve did a 360, I no longer drink or partake in sexual activities. I wanna change my life around. All I can do is cry. I don’t even trust men anymore, I’m so scared.. I wanna be a great mother to my kids, all I could do is cry and pray..