u/Quiet_Plantain_8326

This bear was gifted to me by my Nona in the mid 1990's. I believe he was purchased from "big lots" in the United States but I could be mistaken. He has a plastic nose and his eyes were more visible before he was so loved. He has no tag on his behind, but I know the tag was on the lower (I believe left side) as he had a hole where the tag had been removed that had to be stitched up. He has no tail. I don't recall a ribbon but if there was I believe it would have been a silky brown one similar to his color. He has no function (as in no talking, electronic buttons etc). My cousin has an identical one (the one in this photo) and I unfortunately lost mine during an unfortunate time in my life. I have been searching for a duplicate for years. Alternatively, if there is someone who is skilled enough to create a close replica, that would be sufficient.

I’ll try to keep this brief. Basically my mother was wonderful for the first ten years of my life. When my parents divorced (her idea so she could be with her abusive affair partner) she went off the deep end. To make it short there was cps involvement, heavy drinking and dv exposure. I was left with a lot of trauma. My mother cleaned herself up when I was about 19. I was never good at setting boundaries so I continuously tried to save her and our relationship. I grew up to have my own issues but have been clean for 9 years. Following her alcoholism there was cross addiction into pills (Vicodin and Xanax). She got into suboxone once the cut her off. We eventually managed to have a really good relationship. Though she is immature and unreliable I will not deny she has done some really nice supportive things for me in my hard times which I super appreciate. About two years ago, she began drinking again. She reverted to the manipulative, victim, cruel person she was in her previous addiction which is unsurprising. I love my mother I miss so much who she was when I was a child. Following a final straw incident on Mother’s Day last year, I went no contact. I was at my limit for pain, abuse and emotional disruptions at her whim. This was a very hard choice. I have never cut her off before but I have a lot of responsibilities now and cannot afford to be debilitated by my emotions when she has a bad day. Well Mother’s Day is approaching again. She has changed her number 3 times and continues to send me manipulative messages which I mostly ignore. I will say that I tried to reach out on thanksgiving to just wish her a happy holiday and tell her I loved and missed her. I was feeling guilty and it was selfish on my part. I did clarify that I was not ready to re establish contact but just wanted to let her know I loved her and thought about her. She did NOT take it well. She was nasty. Then on Christmas I received a Facebook message on my old profile from her. It was cruel and hurtful. I responded diplomatically and she exploded. I only responded because I was angry. Regardless I did not say anything abusive or lash out. I am thinking about reaching out to her for Mother’s Day. We live long distance and every year I send beautiful flowers and call her. This year I don’t plan on calling but considered maybe sending flowers again. My question is this. I don’t want to hurt her. I worry that sending her flowers will hurt her more than if I don’t. I also don’t want her to feel like I’m yo-yoing her around or like teasing her with contact. I don’t know what to do. Does anyone have any advice? So much for keeping it short lol. If you made it this far thanks for reading!

Can anyone identify this bear?