Hey I'm just wondering if people noticed any of these side effects on Guanfacine long term, I struggle with them a bit and I think I left my pills at a friend's and can't get a refill for a few days, so trying to see the potential benefits lol.
Hi, I'm gradually going NC with this person to clear my head and see if there's any distance where we can have a relationship.
I'm in a "situationship" I guess, where the rules keep changing and there are hints of affection or a future thing developing-something that hooked me a bit emotionally even while I was able to take step backs mentally and evaluate(and have a therapist to talk to about it, thankfully)
It's pretty frustrating, considering I came in as wanting something casual, but the hooks kind of pulled me towards expecting/wanting something more.
Frequently we will take steps back, I guess the recent one might have been punishment as me pointing out a pattern I noticed, she said maybe we should take a step back because she isn't looking for anything serious-really didn't fit what I said and seemed like "let's not discuss and go back to the status quo, or we're done" I agreed, backed off, she said it again and then I was like ok yeah, fine and didn't hear from her till the next day.
Something I noticed is ramp ups of affection that have hints of exclusivity and candidness, showing me her dating apps/profiles and how she isn't really using them, telling me she's mainly talking to me etc. I don't know how to explain it or point to exact, specific instances, but there is a lot that shows a deeper interest, but it's all conveyed in a way where she isn't committing, so it can be withdrawn at any time.
Like setting up a "we can be something" vibe and having this building undercurrent, then keep to her "I don't want to be in a relationship" line, it really feels like it's meant to keep her options open as far as what she can say to me, like giving her the out of "I told you, I didn't want a relationship"
I would really be okay with just a casual thing, but this creeps me out, and feels like she's running parallel relationships, when there's no need to lie at all. I think maybe if I ignore the bait and just keep to "we are just friends" in my words and actions it might be tenable as just a person to sleep with. Really depends on if I can be emotionally okay doing it, it feels though like she might find ways to try and get under my skin even in that situation.
Just wondering if other experienced the "plausible deniability" thing, where they will suggest something indirectly to give themselves an out later in the relationship.
I was thinking just now that their fear of engulfment is actually valid, because when someone becomes their FP they mirror and revolve around that person. Like that's not actually irrational, because they do become totally immersed and lose themselves.
So maybe a point that'd reduce all the stress on the system, slowing down the tendency to idealize people.